Episode 1- Confessionals

[Joey]

Okay, so I guess I should start by saying how excited I am to actually be playing this game.

I turned down two previous offers to play an isurv1vor game since my original game in Season 2. I honestly never expected to be invited back again since I said no twice, but I'm actually really excited to partake in all of this.

My biggest worry coming into the game is the fact that I'm a bit of an outsider. A lot of these favorites have played in other games together, and have been in more recent seasons, seasons together, or followed along in said seasons as alumni. I literally have been missing in action since my season which was what seems like forever ago. That is my biggest hurdles. Many of these people know each other, and NO ONE knows me. I'm like the new kid in school. It absolutely can have its advantages though, because no one knows how I play. Obviously they can go back and read my season, but it doesn't give that much information away.

Okay first impressions of the favorites. I only talked to a few of them so far.

Alex- He seems a little vacant. I mean he is nice, but a little superficial. He seems kind but who knows how genuine it is.

Alyssa- Super annoying. She gives off a total "oh fuck yea i'm emo, thats hot, look at me, i don't give a fuck" vibe. I'm not crazy about people like her, and she's kind of dull.

Britt- She seemed sweet, but we just didn't connect. Talking to her was like pulling teeth. I do like her, I just didn't like conversating with her.

Zack- Dull. He rubbed me the wrong way even before the game started, so I can say I'm not a fan.

Erik- LOVE. Felt super comfortable talking to him. I am absolutely going to look out when it comes to him, because I know he can be a player. As of now I definitely like Erik alot, but I absolutely will not reveal too much information to him. He has told me he cant stand Alyssa, Zack, and Britt though, which I love.

Loriiann- Fantastic. She is completely adorable and sweet. I connected with Lorii right off the bat. I'm not sure what it was, and to be honest I never saw her season so I dont know if that is how she plays, but regardless I was an immediate fan. She is so sweet, and I can honestly see myself aligning with her in the future.

Robbie- The only person I've known prior to getting cast. Robbie is legit one of my closest friends inside and outside of this game. I know I have his back and he has mine. I know people have an idea we are friendly, but I am definitely trying to downplay our relationship so we don't seem as close. I hope it works, but if not what can you do. All I know is, I am willing to backstab ANYONE in this game, EXCEPT for Robbie.

I have not had the chance to speak to Kirin, Jeffrey, or Allan yet. I have to say I am incredibly excited to talk to Allan. I really liked him pre-show and Im interested to see what he's like.

[Joey]

So I feel like I'm slowly losing faith in this game.

We recieved word of our first challenge and its individual to try and "maintain" a spot in the game. Essentially we are competing against our other tribemates. The last person to complete the challenge is out of the game on each tribe. I know I am capable of doing challenges, my only concern is I have not seen the rest of these people compete so I have NO idea how well or terrible they are. Not only that but I could see a few of them working together to try to get someone like me out.

I jsut feel like I really haven't been given a fair shot in this game. I feel like a ton of people are already cliqued up together because they have been friends and competitors in other games, and no one feels the need to get to know me.

Today Robbie tells me that Alex told him he feels the least close to me. Yea, well no shit, you NEVER IM me. The one conversation I had with Alex was like pulling teeth. I tried talking to him, bringing up things, but he just hardly responded. How can I work with that? He obviously doesn't want to talk to me or else he would have tried bringing up something compatible or at least Iming me.

Zack I've given up on. I honestly don't like him. I tried talking to him, and he has a very "you are beneath me and not worth it" attitude. Kirin is a sweetheart, but yesterday she told me she had to go, but continued to talk to Robbie for a solid 30 minutes.

I just don't know what to do at this point.

[Joey]

Tie Breaker- 420 licks.

[Joey]

I SURVIVED THE CHALLENGE!!!!

I honestly thought I was going to be the first one out of here. I cannot believe I scored enough points to not land in last place and get eliminated. Anyway, Kirk went from the Fans tribe, and Zack went from the Favorites.

THANK.
GOD.

I don't hate Zack, but Ive never talked to him. He never gave me a chance, so he can go fuck himself. I'm so glad he is out. If there is anyone I wanted out of this game it was absolutely 100% Zack, because I knew he had no interest in keeping me here.

With the Favorites getting more points in the first challenge, we also won the first immunity. Which means the worst I can do in this game is 4th out. That is fucking epic. I never would have believed it.

Robbie is still my number one man. I trust him with everything. Erik helped me, supported me, cheered me on, and gave me faith to keep going in our first challenge, so I told him I would look out for him and have his back and he told me likewise. I like Erik and I'd love to have him go far with Robbie & I, but he cannot get anywhere near the final two, or he will absolutely win. He is probably the biggest threat in this game.

Lorii also told me tonight she wanted to look out for me. I LOVE Lorii and I absolutely want to look out for her. I hope she was genuine because I certainly was.

I know Robbie has a four person alliance with Alex, Britt, and Erik. My goal is to have Robbie convince them to bring in Lorii and I, making us a majority of 6 on a 10 person tribe.

From there we get rid of the other four. I actually do like Allan, Alyssa, Kirin, and Jeffrey. Especially, Kirin and Jeffrey. However, Robbie is hell bent on getting Allan out. He thinks hes a huge threat and I can see why based on his performance. Alyssa is a sweet girl, but she was close to Zack so who knows where she stands. I know a few people want her out so I support it. Once those two are gone it gets hard. I genuinely enjoy Kirin and Jeffrey. I'm hoping we don't lose ANY challenges, but if we do, I hope its only a max of two, because while I do enjoy them I wouldnt mind seeing Allan & Alyssa go. I'd hate seeing Kirin and Jeffrey go though.