I am not great with words, or grammer or anything that involves explaining myself, but here it goes.
I started playing this game before it even began.. as you can tell with me whorring myself out to secure a spot. I wasn't smart enough to think of going on some random chat site, but I still managed, and I made it and I was nervous as hell.
When the cast was revealed, my first thought was shit - how the hell do I get myself in with all of these people. A knew a few people , but wasn't as close with them as they we're with others.. I did what I know best, that was to turn on my Newf charm
I'm kidding, because some of you may find it funny, some cute, others retarded or ridiculous. But my first intention was to build relationships with as many people as I could.
I know a lot of you think I am fake as hell, and you know what - you guys are right to some extent. After the inital part of getting to know each other, and when the game started heating up, I did in fact start telling people what they wanted to hear. I do actually like and love a lot of you people, so all the shit that was not game related was real. Love it or hate it , this is what I am like.
I won't apologize for being fake, because everyone is fake at someone point in there life. Wether its just saying "Awwww" or "OMG" when you don't really give a damn or when you have to be polite to someone who is nasty. Its unavoidable!
Anyways, game started. I already knew and loved B, Allan, Kirin and Rob. I knew other people from different games, but I didnt particularly like them, or know them enough to say anything.
I hit it off with Erik, Robbie and Joey , which I was really excited about. Then I talked to Jeffrey and had a good laugh with him, so I was glad about my position.
At that point I knew I had done enough to at least secure myself for a few rounds.
Now, Ill be the first to say I wouldnt be in this game only for Erik. I thought I had done enough in that first challenge to be okay, but thankfully he had done up the score and noticed I was pretty much fucked. He told me , I deleted my torch, and went to the puzzles that he told me about. When that happend, I knew I could rely and trust on him.
The game started off pretty smooth for us Favs. We did well, and the first few rounds passed with a breeze. I continued to build relationships with a lot of people, while not making any official deals.
Day 4 - twist. I almost had a panic attack , but got over it. I knew Rob on the other side, as well as Olyvia and even RB a little. There was a lot of weaker players over there, so I just figured I would be alright if I was stolen.
But as luck, or maybe because of preconceived notions from past games, I was not stolen. The “Fans” tribe continued to pull out wins, the first tribal I attended was Tribal number 6, so I didn’t have to worry about all the shit that comes along with that, until a nice while into the game. It was freaking perfect, seeing as in the past games I srsly went to every single one.
The game just continued with the weak or the outnumbered being picked off, and I was completely fine with that.
I was CRUSHED when Allan left, because I love him.. But other then that, it was best kind.. Numbers continued to drop , and I did what I do best talk talk talk. How do you get a person to trust you? Let them in, let them know you , start to know them... I am not saying I didnt want to get to know you people, I totally did, but it’s a game. And I know maybe I took it too far some times with friendships and stuff, but I just cut out all emotions - they screwed me in my past games, so it was time to leave them out for once. Its sounds harsh , but its all I could do. I was close with people, but they we’re always closer to someone else.
When Robbie quit, it put the game in perspective for me. There was a high force, I guess you could say, of people pretty much controlling the game. That certainly opened up my eyes, and I completely knew it was game on boys.
As lame as it is, I remember it like it was yesterday. It was 4th of July, I was buzzed, off course and came home to have a game turning chat with Joey.
We talked about how we we’re on the outside of the Favs alliance, or at least felt we we’re.
We discussed options on what to do and how to switch it up, if not we knew that we were on the road to getting voted out, maybe not right away, but we would never over come the tightness of Erik, B, Alex and Jeffrey.
I told Joey of something I was cooking up in my head. The plan when Kirin was voted out didnt go as we had planned. It goes something like this, Im sure Joey will also add .. At this point in the game, Erik, Kirin, Alyssa we’re over on the fan tribe with RB, Rob, Evan and Jason.
I told Joey I was going to try and get myself taken over to that side, so I could switch out with Erik or Kirin. Then I was going to join with the fans and take out Alyssa or Jason.
Joey then amped it up even more by realizing he couldn’t vote, so if we needed to go to Tribal , his vote would be useless, so Joey was switched out,
he made the jump first but I did throw that idea out there.. haha and then the game started heating up.
We wanted Alyssa or Erik to be voted out. But for the life of me I could not get anyone to budge on leaving Erik over there. So like I said, Erik switched out with Joey, Alyssa used her TC pass and in the end Kirin had to take the fall.
While all this was going on, so was the letter drama. For the record, I didn’t show Joey, I showed Rob because at that point using that letter would get me in with RB, Evan and Rob as well as Alyssa and Jason - because they we’re all excluded.
You all knew I had something to do with that letter, but yet I managed to bullshit and talk enough to keep myself safe, thus bringing with it Caitlins leave.
After that round, I pretty much knew all bets we’re off and that it was time for me to be stolen or be voted out. It got pretty intense and it sucked to have to hurt people, but like I said, I was in it to win it, and I was taking out my emotions.
I knew I was being switched out, and everyone on my tribe wanted me to be switched out with RB, Evan or Rob so they could be voted out. I knew I could never do that, seeing as they we’re my ticket to switching it up, and advancing myself as far as possible. So it was Alyssa I switched out with.
At that point I had convinced her that her and Jason would be safe, because Olyvia was a gonner.
And that if merge was not the next round I would try and throw the next challenge.
Thus the alliance of Alyssa Jason Joey and I was born.
We really thought that if we made it to Final 5 Joey and I would be the easy outs and RB, Evan and Rob would advance. So, we figured if we could take Alyssa and Jason we would be able to take those three out around f7.
Merge came, Erik took the fall and with that Alyssa and Jason we’re evacuated for cheating. Well, that totally threw us for a loop. We knew that we were still good with RB, Evan and Rob, but we still worried that at F5 we were screwed.
We ended up being split into teams, The team I was on won, and RB took the fall for trying to stir it up.
At that point I had entered another 4 of Joey, B, Rob and Me.
Things got weird and we figured Britt was playing us and intent on sticking with Alex and Jeff no matter what, after the fake fight.. Which I did fall for , for a bit.. We seen her as the glue holding them together, and she was getting us to spear them , so that was threatening and we all agreed that if she was in the end we would vote for her to win, so we Decided she needed to leave.
And then the predictability of voting out Jeff then Alex. Its not that I wasn’t up for changing it up, but you just don’t go from a big alliance to a smaller one.
I was pretty sure that at F4 , either Rob, Joey or I could beat Evan in an immunity, and that he would be the easy out. But the twist happend, we tried to blindside Rob, but he isn’t an idiot.. So it was tied , I won the tie breaker. . Joey won the Final immunity, and here we are. What we set out to do so long ago, we did.
I'm kidding, because some of you may find it funny, some cute, others retarded or ridiculous. But my first intention was to build relationships with as many people as I could.
