Round 11 Confessionals

[RB]

omg I am sooo screwed at this tribal. Everything went down the fucking gutter once Jason got evacuated. I hate that he is gone and that my plans for this round are shot and that Alex stayed and Alex is gonna be emo about the vote and want to vote me out because of the comment I made in the TC topic.

It's sooo bullshit!

My odds of staying are 1/4 (25%) but seeing that all 3 are likely gonna vote me my chances are actually much lower.

I can only hope I convince 1 of them to vote with me against Tucker. Tucker didn't PM me or tell Evan anything so I know he is voting me and hoping the other 2 will as well. Britti more than likely will. I am so screwed

I've lied and lied my ass off this round and I hope one of them votes with me. Hopefully tomorrow I'll have a better idea of if I've convinced them or not. I don't think I convinced Britti but we'll see. It'd be a shock if I did. She didn't give me an answer tonight and said she is voting in the morning soooooo not looking good.

**sigh** I didn't wanna get the boot and this twist has screwed me so hard. The rape hurts

[RB]

Aight well no word on the vote this morning. I've done nothing but make myself out to be a crazy person and I knew full well I was doing that. But it's the fighter in me. Throw me in a situation where I've got no option but to fight fight fight fight for my life then I go kinda crazy.

Right now it is looking like my only shot is Alex coming back and agreeing to vote with me against Tucker or him not coming back and then I vote for him as my only shot to save myself.

Britti just got on but I am already positive that she won't vote with me. I'll talk to her and see if she made up her mind but whatever. Probably a big waste of my time. I'll just have to point out that I have no possibility of even siding with the other people after all this.

We shall see, we shall see.

[RB]

Alex replied to my PMs I sent him and told me that he is down for voting for Tucker. I am going to wait and make sure I feel like he voted before I go and cast my vote. If I vote for Tucker and Alex forgets to vote or his bootlist that he has now mentioned he had is counted then TC could be posted earlier even though Alex said not to count his bootlist. I'm worried about him not voting still. I am going to wait until pretty close to the deadline and then vote for Tucker.

It's put my faith in Alex now or get the boot. I thought maybe I could vote him and get away with a tie but now he has returned and I have no choice but to believe him when he tells me he is definitely in for voting for Tucker and for us to go ahead and do it.

I'm toast more than likely but there is always the chance he isn't lying to me...

After this round I have no clue what I am going to do. I absolutely hate Britti and I want the bitch gone but Alex/Britti are so close. I like everyone else but now it seems like no one trusts me and I'll have to work my ass off to get to the end. I thought it'd be easy for me but it's totally not now and this TC definitely could be the end of the road and if not then it is just the beginning of a hard journey to the end.

[RB]

My PMs to Alex which may have convinced him to vote with me...

"Dude, you accused me of wanting you gone in the TC topic?

That's total bullshit and you know it.

I've only done what I've been told to do this game. Tucker pushed for you to go man and the whole "alliance" agreed to vote you off.

I told you at the merge I'd do my best to protect you and I tried but I can't do anything when I have no power.

Anyway, we're at tribal right now and I'm sure your first instinct is gonna be to vote me but I'm voting for Tucker and you have my word that if he goes my allegiance is with you. I've had your back but when TUCKER and them all push for you, I can't do anything about it >_<

I didn't want you gone at all and I don't want you gone here. I've talked to Britti and also told her I'm voting Tucker.

I'm expecting to be booted but the decision is yours.

I was gonna flip on Joey/Lorii/Evan/Tucker this round and vote Tucker out. Now the jokes on me and I'll get the vote but I'm the one who was gonna help y'all out this round in the first place. Tucker has a F2 deal with Lorii and has for a VERY long time in this game. Olyvia told me all about how close the two of them are. They constantly try and go to the F2 together. They will do it here as well.

Tucker is gonna laugh next round when he has the "swing" power. If I stay there is no swing power. F4 of you, me, Jeffrey, Britti. All you'd have to do is kiss and make up with Jeffrey and it'd be done. And out of those people who do you think I have the best history with? YOU.

Think about it. Voting me is not what is best for you because I have had your back.

Did I want it to be F7, yah. Because you being angry at me for their forcing me to vote you out is not beneficial for me in the game and you did get angry at me and are mad at me and I'm not your enemy.

Anyway, ttyl. I'm voting Tucker. Peace out **sigh**

-Matt aka RB"

PM 2

btw I heard that if Tucker isn't with Lorii like I think he is (F3 with Joey/Lorii) then he is with Britti and it'll be a shock to your alliance when they're in the F2. They're gonna eat up the fact that you/Jeffrey are fighting.

If you vote Tucker and Britti hasn't voted Tucker with us then I'll beat Tucker in the tiebreaker I swear and my allegiance is with you 100%. My wanting to flip on Evan/Lorii/Joey/Tucker and vote out Tucker should show you that I was not happy being with them and that I wasn't happy they made me vote you out and that I was looking for a new alliance.

Cheers,

Matt

PM 3

And if anything, realize Tucker voted for you last TC so why should he be in any better a position than me in your eyes?

The friendship that you and I have means way more to me than any friendship with him.

And Alex's Reply

I`m in, lets vote out Tucker, I just want to talk to Britti to make sure she is thinking about the same and see this whole F2 she suposedly has with Tucker, I just wanna make sure to convince her to vote for him, but I`m def in. Too bad it womnt be a blindside.

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So yah, this is what is giving me hope right now. I gotta hope he votes!!!

[RB]

If I get the boot I deserve it. Too much fucking around this round.

So many lies from everyone.

[Evan]

You were so close to booting his ass