Week 8: Oh Hell Naw.

[erik]

I AM SO.

FUCKING.

PISSED!

JOEY MUST DIE!

I am absolutely Livid. Lividerik. Fuck this shit, I am honestly just absolutely enraged about the whole thing. Kirin is so fucking amazing and adorable and I'm literally just pissed because I wont get to play with her anymore. I started out not expecting to be that close to Kirin in this game because of all the other connections I had, but the more I played with her the more I grew to love her and just love being her ally. She always made things fun, always had me laughing, and I'm just so pissed that she's gone. I WILL exact my revenge and it will be bloody. I still like Joey outside of this game, but inside of it, he just made a HUGE enemy and I *will* come after him with everything I got. If I go down in the process, fine, but this one really hit home and when someone does that to a friend it just pisses me AWF. I really do not understand Joey's decision at all. He basically told me he jumped ship to a minority alliance and he's fine with that. What is WRONG with you Joey?? You were like...at the top of our alliance lmao. I just dont understand. The faves were a group, and he was in the in-crowd of the faves, and he totally overreacted to something stupid and jumped ship because of it. He's either going to get voted off because of it or screw over all his friends and go to the end with losers. Either way, he loses lol. So dumb.

Anyway, I spose I should explain some of what went down. Joey kept telling us he was siding with Kirin and Alex and tying the vote, I always suspected he was lying but I kept faith in him that he'd follow through and that Alyssa was full of BS, and that he'd prove wrong any of those doubts with his vote. Well, he didn't. He not only voted out Kirin who I totally love and could trust, but he fucking screws over Alex my best fucking ally. I am LIVID I tell you. He comes online and tries explaining himself and it's a bunch of bull. He says it was because SOMEONE sent him a PM that Alex hastily sent a bunch of people the other day. Someone in our circle of friends is a fucking leak and I do not know who it is, although I can make some pretty good guesses. It has to be Lorii or Jeffrey. All evidence points to Lorii but she SWEARS it wasn't her and I like to think Lorii wouldn't lie to me like dat. So it just leaves me clueless. Anyway, in this PM, Alex says that he'll switch teams with me, and that he didn't send the PM to Joey or Alyssa because he didn't trust them. Joey took this ONE PERSON'S comment to represent the whole group, and he decides to join up with the retarded fans and jump ship on the faves. I am so over those fucking fans, let me tell you. I am SO GLAD I had Cait voted out cause she woulda crawled right back to them. Ew. Anyway, Joey made a big mistake there. I think he's so paranoid about PROVING HIMSELF and being the nobody that no one knows, he wants to make a big *difference* in this game so he just couldn't wait to make some big stupid move. And he got his chance and slit Kirin's 14 yr old throat in the process. Whatever. He made his choice and I hope that he'll pay dearly for it. I will be not be happy if I let fucking Joey vote me out after all the support I have given him all game only to have him backstab me for such a dumb reason.

Anyway, here we sit with Alyssa and my best ally Alex sitting in the danger zone, and I feel terrible. I jumped ship on Illyria. Joey says he would have voted me out (wow... I seriously cannot believe him). So I guess I'm glad I left, but still. I feel terrible about Kirin, I did not think that was going to happen. I can't believe I trusted Joey that much.....when we stole him, I had no doubt in him whatsoever and I just wish I would have picked someone else. Why. Ugh. I feel dumb for ever trusting him.

I am not confidant with my position in this game right now, I feel like there are TONS of rumors about me and dirt flying around and people have tons of reasons to vote me off. Someone in my F5 alliance is lying to us and possibly playing me, and they could spill everything. I have no idea. Alex and Alyssa are in extreme danger, and those stupid ass Fans could actually pull through if things are not as they appear within my group of allies. I have nothing to lose....Losing this game is not the end of the world for me. And I am going to do everything I can to make this shit work. If I fail, I did my best .

[erik]

Well, as I suspected they might, things have gotten WORSE. Luckily, I always have a Plan B, Plan C, and of course the last ditch effort . Right now I'm on Plan C. Let me explain!

So as I'm reaming Joey out the other night for backstabbing Kirin, he makes it clear that SOMEONE sent him the PM that Alex sent most people in our alliance about switching me with him and about not trusting Joey. I was livid already from Joey jumping ship on us, but to know we had a traitor amongst us made me not only pissed, but very scared. Numbers were scarce as it was, and I really couldn't afford to lose anyone else, let alone have a covert backstabber just waiting for the right moment. I immediately accused Joey of Lorii being the person, it made the most sense. She'd been getting quieter lately, and Jason was getting some VERY interesting information from the fans about Lorii's position with them. So I flat out told Joey I knew it was Lorii, she was the only one who made sense, but he completely denied it and swore on his life that Lorii was not responsible. I didn't buy it at all, he tried to lead me on that it was someone who wasn't sent the PM (Only people were Alex, Myself, Jeffrey, Brittany, Kirin, and Lorii), but that just didn't make any sense. I thought Joey was covering for someone, and the fact that he'd do that made me more afraid.

So, then I started eliminating people. I knew it wasn't me. I asked Alex and Kirin to make sure they didn't accidently send someone the PM, but both swore they hadn't sent it to anyone and I definitely trusted that. I asked Britt, and she also said she sent it to no one. So then it HAD to be Jeffrey or Lorii. Jeffrey swore he didn't and honestly it wouldn't make any sense that he would since he likes Alex so much and wouldn't want to screw him. So....I pretty much knew it was Lorii. I then confronted her about it and she put up this BIG ACT and swore it wasn't her!! She was all offended that we would blame her. Yeah right Lorii. Either way though, I decided to cut my losses rather than risk losing Lorii. I got Lorii, Britt, Jeffrey, and I in a chat, made an agreement that we'd all stick together, and hoped for the best.

Come the next challenge, I was HOPING to go along with this plan Jason had where we steal like Evan, and then Evan stupidly trusts Jason since Jason was saying he'd be next to go and sends Jason to the other tribe, thus giving Alex/Jason/Alyssa the power over there with Jason's extra vote and having Joey or Tucker voted off which woulda been amazing. I thought it was unlikely but worth a shot and better than us losing and just sending Olyvia home in lame fashion. Anyway, we end up losing the IC...Lorii/Britt/Jason sucked and Olyvia didn't even show up. If she had, we prolly woulda won. But yeah...so we lose, and start thinking about what's going to happen.

OF COURSE, rumors start flying that the other tribe wants to steal Lorii. As soon as I heard that, I knew Lorii was double dealing with the other side and I was pretty pissed. I started talking to her and she started giving allll the signs of someone who wanted to jump ship but not make it well known so that she wouldn't take too much heat for it. I'm not stupid! She was trying to be like "Omg Alyssa's freaking on me, I don't want to be on her tribe". Bullshit. JUST a few hours earlier she had told me she would want Joey/Evan/Tucker on our team so that we could vote their ass out. Such bullshit. Lorii swore to me on our friendship, she SWORE to me she didn't send Joey the PM but I know she did and that really pisses me off. As far as I'm concerned, Lorii is off my "People I wouldn't screw over" list and if I have to lie to or backstab her, I will. End of story. The problem is....will I ever get that chance?!?!

I did everything I could to persuede Lorii to stay on our side, basically telling her the fucking facts. She could jump ship to a minority alliance OR stick with the good guys and she'd be in the same F5 alliance she was in before. Welp, she said "fuck you" and decided to send us Alyssa anyway. I even went so sar as to offer her a F3 with Britt and I to try and get out of it:

Yoshirocks1820: I was talking to Britt
Yoshirocks1820: Why don't you just make a F3 with us?
Yoshirocks1820: I don't want us to be on opposite sides
Yoshirocks1820: and those are obviously the only people you trust
Yoshirocks1820: and I trust ya both
LoriiHearn signed off at 12:46:38 AM.
Yoshirocks1820:

Lorii is playing a very shifty game. I give her credit as a player, I didn't think she'd lie to my fucking face like she did, but owell. I no longer will trust a thing that she says. She obviously doesn't want a lot to do with us, and if we DO happen to gain control here I wont be obliging her when she comes knocking on our door for forgiveness. Lorii absolutely abandoned us and there is no turning back from where she is now. I would only work with her out of convenience, I am not looking out for her best interests.

That said, this game is now fucking CLOSE. We have to vote out Olyvia now on the Zeta tribe which limits our numbers even further. Britt let me know that Jason was freaking out about if we had to go to tribal again. He thought he would be screwed, and I knew at that point I had to move on to Plan C.

Place C: Team up completely with Alyssa and Jason. Because they are two people, we absolutely NEED Alyssa and Jason on our side or else Britt/Alex/Myself/Jeffrey will not survive. We will be voted out. So I knew we had to make a solid deal with them so that they felt comfortable with us. I told Jason and Alyssa that IF we went to tribal council again, I would vote Jeffrey out. And this is actually the truth. I would HAVE to vote Jeffrey out because if we lost another member, this game would be down to 5 VS. 5, and we would absolutely need both Jason and Alyssa plus Jason's extra vote in order to gain control. Sacrificing Jeffrey would be absolutely necessary to continue. I don't WANT to do this because I have been liking and trusting Jeffrey more as the game goes on (which I will get to later) plus it would piss Alex off, but I can't think about that. Ya gotta do what ya gotta do.

So, at this point, we should still have control. I do believe we are merging at 11 which would be perfect and mean we don't have to sacrifice Jeffrey. I am just really hoping this works out. It's SO close right now and if anything at all goes wrong, I and my closest friends will be toast. That sucks . Thanks a lot Lorii and Joey. All I can do is play my best and hope for the best though. If I lose, that's fine, because I've done everything possible to keep control and I'll just have to accept it. I've made a LOT of deals lately and I know there's still shit floating around about alliance between Britt/Robbie/Alex/and I, and other shit. I am no longer the fan favorite loved by all...people are obviously worried about me. But I gotta keep playing my best . Hehe.

[erik]

A few more things I wanted to discuss. One is JEFFREY. Now, Alex has been getting increasingly closer to Jeffrey this entire game to the point where I think Jeffrey consideres Alex his best ally. I still think Alex will be loyal to me over Jeffrey, but if Jeffrey and Alex are that close I really had to consider my options. I decided rather than try and get rid of Jeffrey, I'd try to befriend him. I've been talking to him more and even like flirting with him and shit to try and get him to like me or think that I'll be really loyal to him and whatever. I think this is for the best...if Jeffrey is super loyal to Alex and likes me, then the three of us should be able to trust each other right? A friend of my final 2 is a friend of mine . Also helping is a bit of Jeffrey's confessional which Evan got by using his prize. Jason sent it to me. It said:

Yesterday at 3:52pm, jeffrey wrote: Yeah, k, scratch that last confessional. Cait-ling is just as useless as Olyvia and quite frankly I'd rather keep Alex happy by keeping Olyvia rather than keeping a random fan happy by keeping Cait-ling. She needs to go.

Basically, Jeffrey doesn't sound very threatening here and like he's only doing what Alex wants. He doesn't seem to have any ulterior motives other than what he presented to me, so that's good. I feel like I can trust Jeffrey now.


Other person I wanted to talk about is RB. Wtf is with him! Every time I talk to him, he acts SO suspecting and like I'm some kind of freak he doesn't want to talk to. It's so annoying. We're like...supposed to be friends! Like I realize we're on opposites sides, but I *thought* we would be like secret allies on opposite sides that help each other out undercover. Instead, he just doesn't seem to trust me AT ALL or want to talk to me. Whatever. I give up.

I need Tucker's shoulder to cry on .