Week 7: Paranoia

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I will post a confessional later. I am going out to dinner and don't know when I'll be back. I'd like more time to think about my decision, but for now, I am sending ALEX to the other tribe if I am stolen. Please don't do this until I have no time left though, I might change my mind, but this is just in case.

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I never got a chance to answer these, so I'll do that now, retrospectively


1. Alyssa and Robbie are currently in a tie breaker, who are you rooting for and why?

Um, I definitely had to root for Alyssa at that point because I voted for Robbie, and if Alyssa left and he stayed I was obviously in some deep doo-doo, not that I couldn't have wiggled myself free. Retrospectively, I am definitely happy with my decision. Robbie thought he could absolutely control me in this game, and that if I didn't do what he wanted exactly, I wasn't his friend or something, and that just wasn't gonna fly. Even worse, it seems as though that round Robbie was actually trying to pull one over on ME! I think he was hoping that I would vote for Evan, like he said he was going to do, and then his 4 votes for Alyssa would be majority. He NEVER told me he was changing his vote and I seriously think he was trying to trick me so that he could vote out his arch nemesis, but my ally. So, in a nut shell, I don't regret the decision to do what I did and even more so I can't believe he was so mad about it and took it so personally.

2. What was the vibe in the game like after the tribal swap? Are you satisfied with the tribe you ended up on after the Auction closed?

I mean it was definitely different. You wonder if loyalties will start shifting. I mean....will people trust you as much after being on a different tribe for a while? Who knows. Everything was up in the air because you lose that feeling of security you had in an old tribe that you successfully survived on. I did like my new tribe for the most part. I had a solid "alliance" of me, Kirin, Alyssa, and Jason. I had what I thought was a very close ally in Robbie who I was going to protect and who I thought would protect me. And then I had my ace in the hole RB who I didn't think would vote me out, at least not without warning. He was my ticket to avoiding a blindside, because I figured anyone wanting to do it would go to him not knowing we are somewhat close (at least I think =P), and then he would not vote for me or warn me. So yeah, I felt pretty comfortable and was hoping to take out some trash AKA fans that were expendable (Tucker and Evan).

3. If you could have your way, how would the rest of this game shape up? Like, if you had control - explain how the rest of the game would go down.

This is extremely hard to say because there's like 5 or 6 people in this game that I feel EXTREMELY close to, that I would never want to back stab and honestly don't know if I'd ever be able to vote out. Alex and Britt I mean cmon, these are like real friends here. Lorii, Kirin, Alyssa...same thing. Love them all. Joey I am losing some faith in lately with him acting shady but until he proves otherwise he is a friend. And then Jeffrey, RB, Jason, Olyvia, I like them all a lot too. It's hard for me to vote people out that love me and don't give me a reason to and right now a lot of these people are that. However, as I've always said, give me a reason to vote me out...cross me....go against me...and I will slit throats. Robbie would have been on this list of people I couldn't backstab except he gave me a reason to do it and no I wasn't LOOKING for a reason. I thought his was pretty cut and dry. I get hurt and emotional easily so peeps need to watch it . As for the rest of the game, I would ideally like some of my very close allies to get screwed relatively soon and not by my own fault so that I don't have to vote them out later. I'd rather lose the game than lose the real friendships. I'd love to see some combination of Alex/Britt/Lorii in the end and maybe I can get there too although I don't see myself able to be that cutthroat with this group of people.

4. Name one person you trust the most, why? One person you trust the least why?

That's easy. I trust Alex the most. I trusted him the most before, I feel truly connected to him as friends and I just know he would never lie to me much like I am pretty sure Britt would never lie to me, at least on purpose =P. Especially now with the whole Alex having a crush on me thing or whatever it was lmao, I think that is pretty solid evidence that he has my back and wont fuck me over .

The person I trust the least...at this point might be Joey. I don't trust how he's been acting lately. Normally I would pick Jeffrey just because I have never fully trusted Jeffrey in this game for whatever reason, but Joey could be topping him at this point in time. Obviously I don't trust most the fans, but they don't count.

5. Who is your biggest threat in this game? Do you have any plans on trying to get rid of this person before they win it all?

Ew. That's an interesting question I'm sure a lot of people may have picked me as, and I keep asking myself the same thing. Why ISN'T anyone taking me out of this game??? I honestly don't get it, I mean I haven't been THAT social. I'm letting my personality shine and making smart and strategic decisions whenever I can but seriously, people HAVE to be thinking that they can't let this Erik fucker get all the way to the end. It's weird I mean people keep falling in love with me and shit haha. I honestly just feel terrible about the whole thing. It's like a lose/lose. I don't want to be GIVEN the game because people don't want to lose me as a friend but at the same time, I don't want to be backstabbed by my perceived friends cause that would just make me feel bad. It's like a lose/lose for me :/. I don't really know what I can do about it though, I like these peeps too much.

If I had to choose a threat to me though, it would still be Jeffrey. No one has EVER wanted to vote Jeffrey out. He's the perfect combination of UTR and CP (Under the Radar and Complex Personality for you non-edgic people). He's friends with like EVERYONE and everyone loves him. He's kinda like another me in this game, so obviously that is my biggest threat. Do I plan to make a move against him? Well....how can you plan for something like that when everyone loves him?? I like Jeffrey myself...will I ever actually want to make a move against him? I have no idea lol. We'll see.

6. How do you feel at this very moment?

At this moment, I feel safe on my tribe but very fearful of what's to come. I'm scared for the other tribe and I really hope Joey isn't duping us and that my friends, and especially my F2 Alex who volunteered to go over there, are all fine and survive till merge! I think it's funny that the fans really are just sucking ass now and I think most of them will be picked off. I have to assume that no Fan is getting past F7 or F6 of this game, but we'll see! If Joey goes against us, things could totally change.

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Welp, I am BACK from vacation so hopefully I can be more active again, although I never really went inactive and was still pretty much involved in everything while I was gone haha. I just don't want to miss out on all the social game, I have to keep everyone loving me. BTW that's becoming a major problem. I don't like being this well liked by people. It makes me feel too bad and I really don't want to vote them out and lose the friendships. Whatever.

Anyway, I'll make this quick. It wasn't THAT interesting of a week. I got switched. My tribe wanted to vote for Olyvia originally but that would NOT be a smart decision, especially for me. Cait has much better ties to the fans and to Alyssa/Jason, and that has to be watched out for. I want the core Fave alliance to flourish and we need to stamp out any threats from the other side even if it's hard voting them out. Olyvia is with us, or at least, with Alex and I, and therefore she must stay. I think I convinced people enough to keep her around so that's good .

The other tribe.....things get WAY more difficult (curse that tribe, lol). Friggen Joey WAS going to vote Alyssa out. Ugh. Apparently they had a fight but I don't care, I think he just wanted an excuse. Joey just lost himself a lot of credit in my eyes and I no longer really see myself going that deep with him. I just don't trust him anymore.

Anyway, Alyssa was going to get voted out so she used her TC pass meaning Alex and Kirin were at risk and I was PISSED. If Alex didn't have immunity he would probably be the one getting votes. Eff you Joey. As it is, Kirin is getting the votes, and it's going to be a tie. That's IF Joey sticks with the faves, which he might not even do. I will be pissed awf if Kirin gets the boot and if she does, Alex is in some deep shit and we will have to save him somehow. I really hope Kirin can find some way to survive . She can't leave, I was having so much fun with her.

If Kirin does go, I have stacked this tribe by getting rid of Caitlin. The other tribe has no choice but to pick someone from "our side" in the swap if they win (and we will be throwing the competition probably) and hopefully we can get rid of their majority that way and save Alex (and maybe Alyssa).

We'll see what happens when the votes are revealed...