Week 6: Outed

[erik]

Well after last week's dramafest, a lot of stuff in this game has changed. Perbia is no more and while Alex and Britt are still my No. 1 and 2, our power is definitely diminishing. I'm fine with that, the game is very interesting right now and that makes it all the more fun (although frustrating) to play. Truth be told, I still have a sour taste in my mouth from the last round. Robbie was making this game not at all fun to play and he has continued to do that. For one, after friggen 4 or 5 threats to quit iSurv1vor he FINALLY did it. Wow. Didn't see that one coming. I do not respect quitters and if that was Robbie's way of getting out of being a total douche and ruining his own game then whatever. He can take the coward's way out. Alyssa would have kicked his ass anyway.

I wish Robbie didn't take things as far as he did because it is so effing ridiculous that he would take things this personally and turn it into so much. I'm not mad, I'm just annoyed at all the problems he's caused. He outed Alex as having a crush on me or something, and I already kinda knew this so woohoo, but I am mad at Robbie for doing it. Alex is such a nice, pure, and kindhearted person and I lost absolutely all respect for Robbie after he did that. I just can't believe he would be so fucking heartless. After denying all my claims that he was the villain this game and more evil than Alyssa, I am glad he confirmed my suspicions with his actions during the round and after he eventually quit. I think anyone would agree to that, and it's not just me. He quit and screw over all of the people that risked their necks to stand by him (Evan, Tucker, RB) demonstrating again that Robbie only thinks of himself. His perceieved redemtion in quitting was worth more than sticking up for his friends, and I hate that. I would NEVER screw over people that did that much to save me! It's just so selfish. UGH. I can't stand it. Selfishness is like my biggest pet peeve in the world and Robbie just kept demonstrating it at every turn.

Even worse, after Robbie was voted out, he still had the nerve to try and screw over Me, Alex, and Brittany. LOL. How spineless, seriously. He is so delusional as to think he is the victim in all of this and he has no problem interfering with the game and in my eyes cheating since he was voted out already by trying to get me, Britt, and Alex voted out or something. Umm, sorry Robbie, but unlike you, this game doesn't mean the entire world to me and more than real friendships. If I get voted out because of you, I'm just going to laugh at your pettiness and go back to enjoying my summer . Hopefully it wont change anything I mean who cares if it does? That will just make the game that much more of a challenge and as I've said, I love a good challenge.

trains offtracks: oh ps
Yoshirocks1820: yes?
trains offtracks: i know youre aligned wtih alex
trains offtracks: and britti
trains offtracks: and were robbie or w/e
trains offtracks: syrbia? or something
Yoshirocks1820: that was an alliance yes
trains offtracks: i heard.
Yoshirocks1820: but you know where my loyalties lay
trains offtracks: yea
Yoshirocks1820: obviously with the robbie thing
trains offtracks: hah
Yoshirocks1820: did robbie tell people or something?
trains offtracks: mhm
trains offtracks: wlel he told ME
trains offtracks: so apparnetly he told people. lol
Yoshirocks1820: lol
Yoshirocks1820: he's just trying to cause chaos out the door
Yoshirocks1820: cause he's pissed we didn't care that much about him
trains offtracks: yea
Yoshirocks1820: he can't believe kirin and I voted him
Yoshirocks1820: *rolls eyes*

How fucking sad is that? Whatever Robbie. Seriously. I am so done with you. You have been so rude and selfish and mean to everyone and just SUCH a negative impact on this game. I thought you were supposed to be a positive person? Yeah right. I seriously thought we were friends and would be friends in real life before this game started and I honestly wish you didn't play this game because I do not like the Robbie that came out in the game and considering you blocked me, talk trash about me all the time, and probably wont ever talk to me again I guess you could say it definitely had a large impact on what could have been a good friendship. I knew the minute you got into this game that we were going to have problems because unfortunately, even though we might have been friends in real life, I had other unavoidable relationships in this game with people like Alex and Britt and whatever that I couldn't go against because I didn't plan on you being in the game in the first place. I knew you would expect me to do just everything you wanted and do EVERYTHING to support *only* you, which wasn't going to happen because that is not my personality or how I play games ever. You should have just not played and I don't understand why you wanted to play so badly only to be SO rude to me the entire time. People have said you liked me and had a crush on me and stuff, which I thought was great and all but you treated me like such total garbage in this game. Like...I have NEVER been treated like that in an ORG and I will not understand if you did actually like me why you would treat me like such utter shit, one of the worst experiences of my ORG career. If that's what being your friend entails, then I guess it's not for me. Likely, I see you reading all this (if you even read it at all) and still thinking you were totally in the right, and not giving a shit, and probably hating me more. But if you do actually realize the mistakes you made in this game, then hit me up. I hope that you do.

Anyway, I'm forgetting about Robbie now and the sour taste in my mouth and trying to focus on the game we have left to play. Obviously, since my alliances have been a good deal outed, I have a lot of playing and damage control to do. I have already hopefully done it with Alyssa and I do hope she still has my back as I have hers. Oddly enough, my relationship with the fans has grown some. As soon as Robbie quit, RB and Evan came RUNNING to apologize and say how sorry they were! How typical. Evan is such a piece of trash, he even offered to give me his prize because it "wouldn't be of any use to him". He's SO desperate to stay alive and he keeps talking to me now like we are friends or allies or something? Meh. I have enough allies already and although I will work with and use Evan just in case I don't have as many allies as I think I have and because I never turn down an alliance, I still want his ass out of this game. I think he's two-faced, and a liar, and not sincere about his intentions and I don't want him here. However, I want Tucker out more. That piece of shit is a threat and needs to fucking get the fuck out. Actually, he's not even a threat. But he's smart, and I'd rather him leave. He and Evan need to GO. RB I still like and while the Alyssa blindside was a little shady, it's not like he voted me out and I knew he wanted Alyssa out so how can I blame him? I'd have done the same thing. The graveling for safety afterwards and claiming that Tucker pinned it all on him and that everyone wanted him out (which wasn't true...Alyssa wants Evan still) was a little more suspicious than the actual voting of Alyssa itself, but whatever. RB is more likely to have my back than a lot of people so I'll still be looking out for him.

Anyway, I wanted to lose this immunity and vote out Evan or Tucker but it looks like that wont be happening. Ew. The other tribe is throwing it and Tucker apparently STUPIDLY used his challenge blocker thing now on Joey, when he could have saved it for a time to save himself, so it looks very good that we're going to win. That sucks but at least I am safe I guess. I like voting people out though . Bah.

Anyway, that's it for now...I am back from vacation for a day, and then tomorrow I am going on another 5 day trip. I will again have internet access though. Yayz.

And if I am somehow taken from the other tribe, I would like to switch myself with Jeffrey.

[erik]

Blah. We won Immunity. FML. Although might be better now. But everything seriously went haywire. So annoying.

So we win the stupid challenge and Alyssa is allllll Gun-Ho about taking Jeffrey thinking they're good friends and she can control him, but Jeffrey obviously is playing everyone so he's like "umno not happening bitch" Alyssa and I get Jeffrey in a chat and he wants to take Jason. I had had a conversation with Jeffrey prior to this where I let him know that I was fine with them taking Jason, that it was probably a good choice, and he indicated to me that Jason would be fine and join our side. While I think Jason would have stuck with me, I wasn't terribly unhappy to lose him because we'd get another person and everyone would be safe anyway, plus Kirin and him had a tiff. But Alyssa was NOT having it. She was super pissed about losing Jason and just thought everyone was gaining up on her to split up her and Jason, including me. I thought it was not smart of her to make such a big deal of it because she put a huge target on her and Jason and I can't have them leaving yet. We need them now.

Anyway, I have now been associated with Alyssa and Jason and Kirin since I voted with them against Robbie, and that does worry me. I have to wonder where people think I stand now. I mean my loyalties haven't changed at all, but they are very random and spread out. I am not loyal to any particular group, but more so the individuals in those groups that i have been closest with throughout this game. I never trusted Jeffrey and expect him to doubt me but I really hope Lorii and Joey know I have their backs and that they don't lose their faith in me. I could see it happening though.

Anyway, eventually Alyssa decides to pick JOEY because she thinks she can maybe control him. I was fine with that cause I figured Joey would work with us. But then Joey is told by everyone to send Jason back, which I told him to do as well, and which he eventually does, sending Alyssa into a fury. I think she told him to "stop breathing"? Lmao. Ugh....so stupid. We only have 4 people do NOT PISS ANY OF THEM OFF!! We need this to work smoothly. Anyway, that night Alyssa and I worked on damage control with Joey and hopefully he's fine with it. Who knows.

Brittany did tell me however that the other tribe wants to vote Jason out. FUCK. THAT. Y'all guaranteed me he would be safe, and I'm not even CLOSE to Jason but this is not the fucking time to vote him out. Lame ass Jess fuckins needs to effing LEAVE. She is so inactive and so boring and she is lucky as all hell she aint on my tribe or else she would be gone. I can't stand inactives. Jeffrey told me they'd vote Caitlin over Jess. WTF. They are the same value in the game except that Cait is not a total and complete loser. Why would you ever keep Jess around over her? I don't get it. And anyway, I just don't like getting lied to about Jason being screwed. I don't like how I screwed Alyssa and Jason over because I was lied to. I don't like their lack of trust in me because Jeffrey wouldn't tell me Jason was a target. Britt told me about it and I was sworn not to tell, which I didn't. Then last night Alyssa told me the same thing but wouldn't tell me how she knew. Then this morning, everyone is fucking blaming ME for telling Alyssa. Nu uh. BULL SHIT. Don't y'all dare try and pin that on me. I came online to clear things up but people arent going to believe me and it's a load of shit. I feel like Joey/Jeffrey/Lorii are getting weary of Peru or something and it's starting to cloud their judgment of our loyalty to them. Fine. Whatever. If worst comes to worst, I will team up with the lame ass fans if I have to. But either way, I do feel like I'm losing some ground in this game after the whole Robbie voting out, Robbie outing Alex's crush on me (my Final 2), Robbie's revealing of Perbia to Alyssa, and the whole shtick with letting Jason get stolen. Owell though....that just means I have to fight more! We'll see what happens. At least I'm safe this round and will live another day.