Episode 4- Confessionals

[Joey]

I've made it to episode 4! I cant even begin to describe what an accomplishment that is. I honestly thought I would be the first person out. I know I've said this all before, but I honestly feel like I need to keep reminding myself that I am still in hte game because it is so surreal.

So last episode Robbie was switched over to the fans tribe. I obviously was devestated because he was my right hand man and number one ally in this game. Luckily he was able to fight his way through and we lost Allan. I'm not devestated about it. Allan is a sweet guy, but Robbie and I had him on our target list to leave early anyway, so other people just beat us to the punch. I've outsurvived two favorites now and couldn't be happier.

I know Robbie is in a tough position right now, and with this new twist upon us, it only made sense to throw the challenge. I'm not sure if everyone is going to be throwing the challenge but I know a handful of people are. The reason for this is the fact that A. It saves Robbie from going home, and B. If we were to win Robbie would go home, making it 3 fans and 3 fave to leave the game. That is complete bullshit considering the faves would have won EVERY single immunity challenge thus far. Like why should we keep being punished when we win. The smart idea is to throw it, thus allowing us to vote out one of the fans on our tribe. I know it is risky, and there is absolutely a chance I could go home. To say I felt "safe" would be a bold faced lie and complete stretch of the imagination. I am just hoping the faves can stick together at this point and vote out a fan.

[Joey]

So I just had a good conversation with Alyssa. We basically promised to look out for each other. I don't think her promise was sincere and I KNOW my promise wasn't.

What I will say is that Alyssa is starting to grow on me. I thought she was rude, obnoxious, annoying, and cunty the first part of this game. However, we were able to have and hold a mature, serious, and enjoyable conversation for more than a few minutes.

I am still not Alyssa's biggest fan, and I absolutely was lying to her because I do not trust her at all, but it doesnt hurt to keep your friends close and your enemies closer.

No in all seriousness I found a new respect for Alyssa tonight. Dare I say...I think she is starting to grow on me. <3

[Joey]

I thought throwing this challenge and getting rid of a fan would be easy and simple, but apparently that is not the case.

Soon after we lost immunity there was an immediate power struggle. Alex wants Syafiq gone, while Alyssa wants Olyvia gone. It's obvious the girls don't get along, which is why Alyssa wants her to go. Alex wants Syafiq to go, because he feels like leaving the girls in the game would be smart cause they'd go after each other.

What bothers me more than anything is Alyssa going around saying she has all these peoples votes, when she doesnt. She told me she had Erik, Britti, and Jeffrey and they all denied such a thing. Not only that but she told me she had no alliances 2 days ago, and Jeffrey tells me tonight she has/had one with him. I don't fault her for playing the game, but wtf, why make an alliance with me of all people?

At this point I don't know what to do. I'm leaning towards Syafiq for the simple fact that I trust and like Alex more than I do Alyssa. My relationship with Alex started out a little bumpy and forced but its honestly grown into a nice friendship. I guess we'll see what happens.