Post by Alex on Jul 10, 2009 13:15:39 GMT -5
Episode VII - "God forrbid I throw up on a salmon"
This is so fucked up.
Apparently people can't keep their fucking traps shut, someone told Alyssa about the PM I sent [to Erik, Lorii, Britti, Kirin, Jeffrey] I think it was either Kirin or Lorii, Britti says it can't be Lorii since she hates Alyssa, however, she has been acting so nice to me lately, like normally I had to IM her to talk and now all of a sudden she comes, calls me love, sweetie and I'm just like "um okay?" I mean I like Lorii but that's suspicious behaviour. However, Kirin is very very sneaky and she is good friends with Alyssa so it could very well be her. Whoever it was they are trying to fuck me over so I need to fuck them over before they do it to me.
I honestly think I'm fuked, Kirin is most likely going home tonight as I couldn't change Tucker's mind and I'm sure she or Joey couldn't either and with Alyssa bailing on us [which honestly, it was smart of her but it fucked us all] we are def looking at the first case of Fan dominance, so scary!
Oh about the Alyssa thing, I don't think they told her the part where I throw her under the bus as she didn't comfront me about that part and we all know Hurricaine Alyssa she wrecks everything and doesn't keep anything to herself.
On top of that someone came to me today and told me they had a crush on me... I feel so bad, I hope they didn't feel I was leading them on because it was never my intention, I'm only interested in Erik. I feel so bad, I really really do, what am I suposed to say to this person? Talking about Erik, a lot of people are calling me his "lap-dog" which really bothers me, I'm done doing it, I pretty much sacrificed my whole game for the guy and he didn't even said thank you, I hate to say it and I know it might make me a very bad person all things considered [though I doubt anyone besides Sandy/Corey would understand what I mean] but I don't trust him in this game, I don't think he is trying to fuck me over but I just think he is playing too many sides and I always have to find out about things from another person because he doesn't tell me things, I don't want to throw my whole game down the window for someone who isn't willing to do the same sacrifices for me. I just need to grow a spine and figure out how to play more individually. Emotions + games are not suposed to mix, I don't know how you guys [Sandy and Corey] do it.
In another news, I made a deal with Tucker, I figured if Kirin left I would need protection so I made a deal with him to help each other reach merge. He agreed but honestly I don't think he is being fully sincere so I am keeping my eye on him. Arabia version of Alex needs to have a come-back, I don't want to play an emotional game anymore, I wanna play good and I want to win.
Oh and if it wasn't enough Robbie PM'd me today... how am I suposed to feel about that?
I honestly think I'm fuked, Kirin is most likely going home tonight as I couldn't change Tucker's mind and I'm sure she or Joey couldn't either and with Alyssa bailing on us [which honestly, it was smart of her but it fucked us all] we are def looking at the first case of Fan dominance, so scary!
Oh about the Alyssa thing, I don't think they told her the part where I throw her under the bus as she didn't comfront me about that part and we all know Hurricaine Alyssa she wrecks everything and doesn't keep anything to herself.
On top of that someone came to me today and told me they had a crush on me... I feel so bad, I hope they didn't feel I was leading them on because it was never my intention, I'm only interested in Erik. I feel so bad, I really really do, what am I suposed to say to this person? Talking about Erik, a lot of people are calling me his "lap-dog" which really bothers me, I'm done doing it, I pretty much sacrificed my whole game for the guy and he didn't even said thank you, I hate to say it and I know it might make me a very bad person all things considered [though I doubt anyone besides Sandy/Corey would understand what I mean] but I don't trust him in this game, I don't think he is trying to fuck me over but I just think he is playing too many sides and I always have to find out about things from another person because he doesn't tell me things, I don't want to throw my whole game down the window for someone who isn't willing to do the same sacrifices for me. I just need to grow a spine and figure out how to play more individually. Emotions + games are not suposed to mix, I don't know how you guys [Sandy and Corey] do it.
In another news, I made a deal with Tucker, I figured if Kirin left I would need protection so I made a deal with him to help each other reach merge. He agreed but honestly I don't think he is being fully sincere so I am keeping my eye on him. Arabia version of Alex needs to have a come-back, I don't want to play an emotional game anymore, I wanna play good and I want to win.
Oh and if it wasn't enough Robbie PM'd me today... how am I suposed to feel about that?
Alex