"Tribal Council #9"

[Alex]

If you could make the vote to be purple that would be grand.

Evan, you are a great fellow, thank you for everything.
Best frenemy I've ever had, I don't think you are leaving tonight but I am trying to help my friends stay here.

[Alex]

I've been thinking a lot about this game, I wonder, is it possible to like lay down my torch only if someone else get's the most ammount of votes? For example say Britti, Jeffrey or Erik get the majority of votes, if that's the case is it possible that instead of the votes being read that I would lay down my torch?

I would like to know Sandy, please.

I'm not sure if I want to go, yesterday was a really intense day for me, I thought I had lost Erik forever, I was scared, I was hurt and I fought with everyone, I was ready to go, I still don't think I'm in the right mind set to stay. I am leaving on Tuesday to meet someone that I just would love to meet, I would have internet access, yes. But I don't know if I want to spend my time here instead of spending it with this person, I am just so unsure of everything. Lay down my torch or try and put up a fight? I mean there's still the chance Alyssa and Jason would stick with us but if they don't, if Erik/Jeffrey/Britti go... they want to stay, I don't. Should I lay down my torch for them and just take a time off the computer to calm down, get my life together? I don't think I'm mentally stable to keep up with the game, and by laying down my torch for them I would be pulling a Janu, and honestly, when Janu did it, it was amazing because she was leaving so people who actually wanted to play could play. As a host I know the worst thing is having someone like myself who you don't know if would stay until the end or if they would just quit because it get's too hard, would it be seen as something completely lame and whiny or would it be seen as a nice act to keep the game going without flaws? I don't know, I don't even know if I care...

I'm rambling here, but I'm trying to make my mind up, should I just pull the trigger or hang in there? I wish I could get some advice, but who can give me some advice, no one fully understand the situation and the people who do are suposed to be completely unbiased as they are hosting the game... I'm just so exhausted, the day after the storm everything seems fine but you find yourself heart-broken, my heart is broken and I need time to heal.

Sandy, is it possible? Is it possible to lay down my torch if any of those three receive the most ammount of votes? [I'm not quitting, if they don't get the most votes I'll stay, but if they do, if one of them is going to get voted out over me despite my plea to have all votes directed my way then I would take matters into my own hands] If it is, please please please, if one of them gets the majority of votes say that since one of them has gotten the most ammount of votes I'm laying down my torch for them as I know they have more energy in them than me and they could pull it off. Sorry for ruining the game, I feel awful but I just need to get this over with and to fix my relationships with people and I'm afraid that the longer we both stay together in the game it's only going to hurt us and I'm not ready to live without him in my life.

[Alex]

Please forget what I said up there ^
I think I'm biploar 'cause I changed my mind and now I want to stay

And here is what I offered Jason as he admitted Erik was fucked:

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:03:08 PM] Troyan X Warrior: jase <333
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:04:43 PM] Jason [Fan]:
heeey

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:04:45 PM] Jason [Fan]:
whats up?

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:04:49 PM] Troyan X Warrior: The calm after the storm is the worst part aye. [With my cousin]
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:05:07 PM] Troyan X Warrior: not much, im feeling so much better, thank you so much for being there for me yesterday like it means so much
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:05:16 PM] Troyan X Warrior: whats up with you?
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:05:28 PM] Jason [Fan]:
np man :-)

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:05:31 PM] Jason [Fan]:
nothing spectacular

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:05:35 PM] Jason [Fan]:
just woke up a lil while ago

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:05:45 PM] Troyan X Warrior: rise and shine sunshine!
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:05:59 PM] Troyan X Warrior: we are still good to vote out evan right?
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:06:10 PM] Jason [Fan]:
i heard it's britti now

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:06:17 PM] Troyan X Warrior: wtf
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:06:28 PM] Troyan X Warrior: why in hell is britti being voted out?
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:06:50 PM] Jason [Fan]:
idk

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:06:53 PM] Jason [Fan]:
thats just how im going

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:06:56 PM] Jason [Fan]:
i dun rlly car eofr her

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:07:20 PM] Troyan X Warrior: i thought you were with us though, like if you vote with them you and alyssa would get like 6th and 7th i think
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:07:53 PM] Jason [Fan]:
:/

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:08:07 PM] Troyan X Warrior: i really want you guys to do better than that, like honestly. if you go with us i already promised you f4
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:08:26 PM] Troyan X Warrior: and like if we are the final 6 i might just ask to be voted out so you are final 5
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:08:45 PM] Troyan X Warrior: but right now thats what im thinking
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:08:39 PM] Troyan X Warrior: i mean idk since apparently im bipolar and i have mood swings
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:09:27 PM] Troyan X Warrior: like i dont know why you guys would settle for like 6th and 7th if you could get [worst case scenario] 5th and 4th
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:09:57 PM] Troyan X Warrior: i mean you guys cant win immunity, both at the same time if you go with them. idk i just thought you were really with us
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:10:21 PM] Jason [Fan]:
lolololol i'm just yanking ur chain :-P

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:10:34 PM] Troyan X Warrior: what chain?
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:11:09 PM] Troyan X Warrior: look jase, you are my friend. if you vote out britti this round tell me now and next round you guys can jump to us, we can force a tie and take out one of theirs
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:11:34 PM] Troyan X Warrior: that way you would have a better chance in either side, you know?
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:11:50 PM] Jason [Fan]:
lolol yea

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:11:53 PM] Jason [Fan]:
im not voting out britti

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:11:55 PM] Jason [Fan]:
itd be stupid

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:12:08 PM] Troyan X Warrior: im just really tired of waiting for results, this has been a mentally exhausting round and i just want it done and i cant watch videos at work so
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:12:24 PM] Troyan X Warrior: so, who are you voting out? just let me know and it'll be fine, please?
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:12:55 PM] Jason [Fan]:
idk i havent voted yet :/

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:13:24 PM] Troyan X Warrior: well what are you thinking?
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:14:21 PM] Jason [Fan]:
well my choices arrrrre....

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:14:23 PM] Jason [Fan]:
evan or erik

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:14:32 PM] Troyan X Warrior: please vote evan?
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:14:58 PM] Troyan X Warrior: think about it this way jase. erik likes you, my side likes you. evan and you have had tiffs, alyssa and evan have had tiffs, joey and alyssa have had tiffs
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:15:07 PM] Troyan X Warrior: do you really think they would have mercy later on?
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:15:58 PM] Troyan X Warrior: if i dont reply fast its cause im talking to my cousin btw
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:16:10 PM] Jason [Fan]:
np lol im doing some stupid game atm

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:16:15 PM] Jason [Fan]:
who knows what anyone will do atm

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:17:42 PM] Troyan X Warrior: i guess, i just idk, like i feel erik has played so hard and not getting jury would suck and i mean honestly, think of this. if you save him who do you think gets his vote in the end?
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:18:20 PM] Troyan X Warrior: ill make you a deal, save erik this round and help us get to jury and you have my vote in the final 2 regardless of who you go against
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:18:47 PM] Troyan X Warrior: if all of us make it through to the jury you have my vote evn if you decide to royally fuck me over after, what do you think?
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:20:16 PM] Jason [Fan]:
i doubt anyone would keep that

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:20:32 PM] Troyan X Warrior: would keep what?
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:20:41 PM] Jason [Fan]:
that deal

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:21:22 PM] Troyan X Warrior: um jase, i cant promise for everyone else. but i swear if you do this for us then you have my vote at final 2, i have done this deal in other games and i always go through weith it, im a man of my word
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:22:00 PM] Jason [Fan]:
i just dont understand u :/

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:22:15 PM] Jason [Fan]:
u go from plotting to get himm out to then making deals to save him and shit

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:22:31 PM] Jason [Fan]:
i feel like ur whole thing before was just some act to sucker me into believing u

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:22:36 PM] Troyan X Warrior: i knoooow, i tell you i think im bipolar haha
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:22:46 PM] Troyan X Warrior: no no jase, i was actually going through with it
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:22:50 PM] Troyan X Warrior: but then i felt so guilty
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:22:54 PM] Troyan X Warrior: and i confesed to erik
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:23:26 PM] Troyan X Warrior: and he just told me some things that made me so upset and i really wanted to give up in the game, im still not sure if i 100% want to keep going
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:23:49 PM] Troyan X Warrior: this morning i was thinking if they got voted out for some misterious reason ill lay down my torch and get over with it
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:23:47 PM] Jason [Fan]:
seeee tho

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:23:52 PM] Jason [Fan]:
u broke down about it

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:23:57 PM] Jason [Fan]:
if u felt guilty thinking about it

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:24:02 PM] Jason [Fan]:
u never would have went thru with it

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:24:15 PM] Troyan X Warrior: but then after thinking, like its not like they would like me more for it, if anything they'll be disapointed i took that way
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:24:27 PM] Troyan X Warrior: but i never thought ill feel guilty
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:24:56 PM] Troyan X Warrior: i got very paranoid because of something he told me about skyping with you guys and i was like "fuck fuck fuck, he knows" cause he was being cold so i just came clean
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:25:32 PM] Troyan X Warrior: but my objective was always, and believe me when i say this, it was always tog et you to f4 even if i couldnt go through with the plan i would have quitted and given you my spot
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:27:11 PM] Troyan X Warrior: cause i swore in our friendship and to me that deal still stands, im getting you to f4
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:27:33 PM] Jason [Fan]:
how culd we get to f4 if ud quit before that :-P

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:27:34 PM] Troyan X Warrior: and if you save erik and my people this round you have my vote at f2
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:27:47 PM] Troyan X Warrior: if its final 5 and i quit you get final 4, duh
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:28:01 PM] Jason [Fan]:
ohhh lol

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:28:09 PM] Troyan X Warrior: ditzy jason
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:28:40 PM] Troyan X Warrior: we are friends, even if you vote out erik you would be my friend but my doing that you'll call off my deal with you to vote for you f2 and to get you to f4
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:29:20 PM] Jason [Fan]:
waaait

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:29:28 PM] Jason [Fan]:
so if i voted erik there wouldnt be a f4??

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:30:25 PM] Troyan X Warrior: well if you vote erik i dont see how i can help you
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:30:37 PM] Troyan X Warrior: cause i wont have the numbers and the people to get you there as ill be minority
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:30:39 PM] Jason [Fan]:
well why the hell not??

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:30:40 PM] Jason [Fan]:
not rlly

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:30:52 PM] Troyan X Warrior: well it would be 3 vs 7
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:30:57 PM] Jason [Fan]:
3??

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:31:13 PM] Troyan X Warrior: but yeah, if i have a way to get you there i will, but i would much rather you kept erik and take the easier route there
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:31:19 PM] Troyan X Warrior: 3 - me, britti, jeffrey
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:31:19 PM] Jason [Fan]:
oh

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:31:21 PM] Jason [Fan]:
me and alyssa

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:31:30 PM] Troyan X Warrior: 7 - joeys club, you and alyssa
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:31:47 PM] Jason [Fan]:
thered still be me u jeff britt lyssa and ma vote

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:31:49 PM] Jason [Fan]:
thats enuff

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:32:09 PM] Troyan X Warrior: but why would you waste your vote right now if you could use it further into the game by keeping erik?
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:32:40 PM] Troyan X Warrior: if you guys go with us this round you would have their full trust, and you can do whatever stunt you and alyssa want later
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:32:47 PM] Troyan X Warrior: and i mean im promising you f4
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:33:13 PM] Jason [Fan]:
i klnow u r

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:33:20 PM] Jason [Fan]:
im just worried about him fucking with ur head later

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:33:28 PM] Jason [Fan]:
like if he wanted to go after me or some shit ud listen to him

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:33:34 PM] Jason [Fan]:
cuz he obviously affects u majorly

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:33:45 PM] Troyan X Warrior: jason, look, i wont lie. i cant vote erik out, not after yesterday but i would NOT vote you out before final 4
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:33:49 PM] Troyan X Warrior: and thats a promise
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:34:15 PM] Troyan X Warrior: if he tries ill tell him to go fuck over, come to you, tell you whats up, vote with you and alyssa and your other vote against one of the other two
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:34:32 PM] Jason [Fan]:
thats the thng

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:34:37 PM] Jason [Fan]:
what if we wanted erik??

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:34:39 PM] Troyan X Warrior: and if they wont budge ill just quit and give you an extra round
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:34:53 PM] Troyan X Warrior: i dont think im able to vote erik out, but i can put a throw away vote
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:35:05 PM] Troyan X Warrior: and im certain my influence would let them keep you for more time
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:35:16 PM] Jason [Fan]:
u may defend me but ud jump on alyssa :/

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:35:25 PM] Troyan X Warrior: like honestly jase, if i tell them i wont vote for you and id rather put a throw away vote they would not do it cause they'll be scared
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:35:33 PM] Jason [Fan]:
theyll go after alyssa

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:35:49 PM] Troyan X Warrior: im making a deal with you jase, not alyssa, i love alyssa but she started kicking me when i was down yesterday
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:36:12 PM] Troyan X Warrior: like yes, if i have to vote out alyssa to keep you around, well i cant promise you i wont
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:36:23 PM] Jason [Fan]:
well i always keep alyssas safey in mind too

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:36:31 PM] Troyan X Warrior: cause you are my priority, my promise is to you and you need to stop thinking of you as a duo though
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:36:34 PM] Jason [Fan]:
and the way u word stuff it founds like at f6 or w/e shed be goin

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:36:48 PM] Troyan X Warrior: i dont know if alyssa would be going at f6
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:36:55 PM] Jason [Fan]:
its not hard to figure out

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:37:01 PM] Troyan X Warrior: i might ask everyone to vote me out then and to take you to final 4
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:36:59 PM] Jason [Fan]:
u resfuse to vote for me

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:37:06 PM] Jason [Fan]:
so theyd go with alyssa

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:37:10 PM] Jason [Fan]:
which ud have no problem doing

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:37:21 PM] Troyan X Warrior: look what if i promise this
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:37:25 PM] Troyan X Warrior: at final 6 i wont vote for alyssa
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:37:37 PM] Troyan X Warrior: ill throw away my vote and let them tie it between alyssa and whoever you guys choose
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:37:47 PM] Jason [Fan]:
i just dont understand why ur tring to make so many promises when ur not in any danger

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:37:56 PM] Jason [Fan]:
well mabye i dun want a tie :/

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:38:02 PM] Troyan X Warrior: because i want them to be safe to
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:38:16 PM] Troyan X Warrior: like i know how much they care for this, i know how much you do
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:38:21 PM] Troyan X Warrior: i really want you guys to do good
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:38:33 PM] Jason [Fan]:
well ur basically telling me at f6 alyssa is fucked

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:38:45 PM] Troyan X Warrior: dude
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:38:53 PM] Troyan X Warrior: if you vote out erik alyssa is fucked at f8
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:39:11 PM] Jason [Fan]:
how do u know that?

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:39:20 PM] Troyan X Warrior: well then you are
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:39:31 PM] Troyan X Warrior: joey's club wont keep you guys around once they are done with us
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:39:50 PM] Troyan X Warrior: dont be naive jason, you told me you always get fucked for being naive
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:39:54 PM] Troyan X Warrior: well here is my reality check to you.
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:40:06 PM] Troyan X Warrior: erik is gone this round, then jeffrey or me, then the other and then britti
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:40:15 PM] Troyan X Warrior: then you and alyssa go out unless you guys go in an immunity run
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:40:51 PM] Troyan X Warrior: and even then only one can go into the immnity run
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:41:34 PM] Troyan X Warrior: if at f6 with my side alyssa wins immunity ill tell them i cant vote you out cause i swore and they can vote me out instdead, then me, you, alyssa and your other vote can vote out one of them
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:41:47 PM] Jason [Fan]:
thats only if she wins immunity

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:41:53 PM] Troyan X Warrior: and i mean who knows how much would have changed by then
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:41:56 PM] Troyan X Warrior: we will help her win it
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:42:50 PM] Troyan X Warrior: i dont know what else i can say jason
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:43:44 PM] Jason [Fan]:
nothign rlly

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:44:11 PM] Troyan X Warrior: just honestly, i really think going with us its your best best choice
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:44:28 PM] Troyan X Warrior: im not bluffing, im over that shit
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:44:44 PM] Troyan X Warrior: i want you to do good, but i want you to do good WITH my people and i dont see how you ca do good with the others
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:45:06 PM] Jason [Fan]:
idk yet

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:45:08 PM] Jason [Fan]:
i neeed to think

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:45:25 PM] Troyan X Warrior: okay, just let me know please
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:45:29 PM] Jason [Fan]:
mmhmm

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:45:40 PM] Troyan X Warrior: <3 you regardless
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:46:02 PM] Jason [Fan]:
an dont mention this to ANYONE

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:46:16 PM] Jason [Fan]:
like if erik or britti or jeffrey im me acting weird ima assume u said sumthing :-P

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:46:21 PM] Troyan X Warrior: im not stupid i wont say shit
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:46:56 PM] Troyan X Warrior: i wont until we are down to us 6 and i go like "oops, btw guys i told this and this and this to jason so he would go with us and im a man of my word"
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:47:41 PM] Troyan X Warrior: erik is on vacs either way and he is prob the only one who can guilt trip me, but he wont since im not fucking him exactly this time
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:48:17 PM] Jason [Fan]:
mmhmm

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:48:37 PM] Jason [Fan]:
no matter wat happens this week i still wanna work with u guys

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:49:19 PM] Troyan X Warrior: i do too but like i really want erik to make it further and i mean half my deals only apply if he is around
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:49:59 PM] Jason [Fan]:
well which ones aply for if he isnt? XD

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:50:08 PM] Troyan X Warrior: the only one that applies even if he is gone is the one for f4 cause i made that one before
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:50:13 PM] Jason [Fan]:
mmhmm

[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:50:23 PM] Troyan X Warrior: and i really dont think ill have enough power to achieve it
[Fri Jul 17 2009 12:52:08 PM] Troyan X Warrior: good luck


So yes, I am going to keep trying, hardcore to survive, if Erik goes home I think it would light up my fire like it happened in Arabia and if he isn't, well that means Jason stayed with us and I am going to go on with my side of the deal. I hope Erik forgives me and trusts me again so we can be F2, predictable, boring yes. I don|t care, he is more important to me than this game.