Confessional!!!

[Alex]

Episode VII - "God forrbid I throw up on a salmon"

This is so fucked up.

Apparently people can't keep their fucking traps shut, someone told Alyssa about the PM I sent [to Erik, Lorii, Britti, Kirin, Jeffrey] I think it was either Kirin or Lorii, Britti says it can't be Lorii since she hates Alyssa, however, she has been acting so nice to me lately, like normally I had to IM her to talk and now all of a sudden she comes, calls me love, sweetie and I'm just like "um okay?" I mean I like Lorii but that's suspicious behaviour. However, Kirin is very very sneaky and she is good friends with Alyssa so it could very well be her. Whoever it was they are trying to fuck me over so I need to fuck them over before they do it to me.

I honestly think I'm fuked, Kirin is most likely going home tonight as I couldn't change Tucker's mind and I'm sure she or Joey couldn't either and with Alyssa bailing on us [which honestly, it was smart of her but it fucked us all] we are def looking at the first case of Fan dominance, so scary!

Oh about the Alyssa thing, I don't think they told her the part where I throw her under the bus as she didn't comfront me about that part and we all know Hurricaine Alyssa she wrecks everything and doesn't keep anything to herself.

On top of that someone came to me today and told me they had a crush on me... I feel so bad, I hope they didn't feel I was leading them on because it was never my intention, I'm only interested in Erik. I feel so bad, I really really do, what am I suposed to say to this person? Talking about Erik, a lot of people are calling me his "lap-dog" which really bothers me, I'm done doing it, I pretty much sacrificed my whole game for the guy and he didn't even said thank you, I hate to say it and I know it might make me a very bad person all things considered [though I doubt anyone besides Sandy/Corey would understand what I mean] but I don't trust him in this game, I don't think he is trying to fuck me over but I just think he is playing too many sides and I always have to find out about things from another person because he doesn't tell me things, I don't want to throw my whole game down the window for someone who isn't willing to do the same sacrifices for me. I just need to grow a spine and figure out how to play more individually. Emotions + games are not suposed to mix, I don't know how you guys [Sandy and Corey] do it.

In another news, I made a deal with Tucker, I figured if Kirin left I would need protection so I made a deal with him to help each other reach merge. He agreed but honestly I don't think he is being fully sincere so I am keeping my eye on him. Arabia version of Alex needs to have a come-back, I don't want to play an emotional game anymore, I wanna play good and I want to win.

Oh and if it wasn't enough Robbie PM'd me today... how am I suposed to feel about that?

Alex

[Alex]

Episode VIII - "I'm not meant to be a porn star"

I am fucked up.

It was Lorii, fucking Lorii. Erik just told me Lorii was the one who sent the PM to Alyssa AND Joey hence why Joey swapped and voted Kirin out. I fucked up, I really really fucked up. Fuck fuck fuck fuck!!! I guess I deserve it for being so naive and trusting, this is a wake up call. Ugh fucking Lorii, I want to murder her right now. For real, she better not come acting all friendly to me or I would kill her. I'm so so so soooo pissed, you have no idea how much I want to punch someone. Watch me get into a fist fight at tonight's party.

Ugh I am so so so fucker, Joey says Ayssa is next but Evan said I am the next one. So I'M FUCKED, I'm fucked, I'm fucked, I'm fucked, I'm fucked. I'M FUCKED!!!! Ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh, how the fuck am I going to survive? I need to make Joey believe I am all peachy and hppy and I don't give a shit. Which is ahrd since I'm very upset Kirin is gone, I need to win the next challenge and make sure the Fans target Ayssa over me. However there is a little glimmer of hope. Jason. Knight in shining armour comes trotting right in. That's right not Erik who has been ignoring me through out ´my whole freak out but Jason, he came up with a plan, which he shared with Erik [wtf, why does everyone tell Erik everything?]

Here is Jason's plan:
"Jason [Fan]" (19:39:50): I have a plan
Troyan X Warrior (19:39:55): tell me please
"Jason [Fan]" (19:40:09): ok so like caitlin got voted out over here
"Jason [Fan]" (19:40:12): and Im ripshit about that
"Jason [Fan]" (19:40:22): and i just bitched to evan for an hour about it
"Jason [Fan]" (19:40:30): and how I wanna get back at all the faves for lieing to me
"Jason [Fan]" (19:40:31): SO
"Jason [Fan]" (19:40:47): what I want to happen is say u guys lose
"Jason [Fan]" (19:40:59): my tribe chooses a fan and I get them to swap with me
"Jason [Fan]" (19:41:08): then me u alyssa and my extra vote
"Jason [Fan]" (19:41:12): will have the majoirty
"Jason [Fan]" (19:41:47): ive already talked to evan about how I wanna vote u out to get back at jeffrey
"Jason [Fan]" (19:41:50): but none of it is true
Troyan X Warrior (19:42:28): oooo wow
"Jason [Fan]" (19:42:41): do U think it would work?
Troyan X Warrior (19:42:44): i like that plan yes
"Jason [Fan]" (19:42:44): i ran it by erik and he liked it
"Jason [Fan]" (19:42:48): hes the only other one that knows
Troyan X Warrior (19:42:49): but wouldnt it be better if you guys won?
"Jason [Fan]" (19:42:56): and id like for it to stay that way atm
"Jason [Fan]" (19:43:00): yea
"Jason [Fan]" (19:43:03): did I say u win?
Troyan X Warrior (19:43:04): yeah, i wont say squat, obviously
"Jason [Fan]" (19:43:04): I meant us win"
"Jason [Fan]" (19:43:22): like i dun even want jeffrey or lorii knowing
"Jason [Fan]" (19:43:27): cuz idk where their heads r at
"Jason [Fan]" (19:43:37): and if the fans get any wiff of this
"Jason [Fan]" (19:43:42): itll get al fucked up
Troyan X Warrior (19:45:57): yeah i def understand
Troyan X Warrior (19:46:02): i wont say a thing, thanks jase <3
"Jason [Fan]" (19:46:07): kk
"Jason [Fan]" (19:46:14): np ima do w/e to keep u and alyssa safe
Troyan X Warrior (19:52:29): thank you so much jason
"Jason [Fan]" (19:53:03): np Alex
"Jason [Fan]" (19:53:07): u know ur one of my besties
Troyan X Warrior (19:53:28): and you are one of mines
"Jason [Fan]" (19:53:52): gooood
"Jason [Fan]" (19:55:58): i know like ud chose just about every fave over me XD but like ill take what I can get I suppose
Troyan X Warrior (19:56:29): awwww jase thats not true, either way when merge comes it'll all change

There's deff hope, but I still think I'm fucked. Ugh, I'm fucked.

Alex

[Alex]

"Jeffrey" (20:54:51): are you okay?
Troyan X Warrior (20:55:06): no, im pissed
Troyan X Warrior (20:55:27): im telling erik i want to kill her and he says i shouldnt do anything and i should just fucking sit here and look pretty while he talks to everyone
Troyan X Warrior (20:55:40): and then they wonder why the fuck everyone thinks im his fucking lap dog
Troyan X Warrior (20:55:47): im so tired of fucking myself over for everyone
Troyan X Warrior (20:57:57): he didnt even fuckign say thank you for swapping tribes and pretty much fucking myself voer for him
Troyan X Warrior (20:58:02): im tired of all this bullshit
"Jeffrey" (20:58:26): you need some way to let your anger out
Troyan X Warrior (20:58:43): yeah fucking murder someone

"Joey" (21:07:15): whose spreading shit?
Troyan X Warrior (21:07:30): according to tucker evan
Troyan X Warrior (21:07:42): then someone obviously showed you the pm, someone i actually trusted
Troyan X Warrior (21:07:58): and i mean its not like "zomg lets hide it from joey"
Troyan X Warrior (21:08:09): but they knew what it would mean for my personal gameplay
Troyan X Warrior (21:08:19): and i mean they showed you, big deal
Troyan X Warrior (21:08:23): but they showed fucking alyssa
Troyan X Warrior (21:08:30): and in the pm i am not very graceful abou her
"Joey" (21:08:32): who showed alyssa?
Troyan X Warrior (21:08:36): i dont know
Troyan X Warrior (21:08:39): im guessing whoever showed you
"Joey" (21:08:41): I didnt even know alyssa knew
"Joey" (21:11:07): the letter was passed around
"Joey" (21:11:11): im pretty sure everyones seen it
"Joey" (21:11:12): to be honest
Troyan X Warrior (21:11:21): i wouldnt be surprised


Troyan X Warrior (20:45:22): someone showed the stupid pm and the only person i dont fully trust is lorii, so im sure its her
"Erik" (20:48:50): yeah it's got to be
Troyan X Warrior (20:49:12): im going to comfront her tomorrow ehn im calm
"Erik" (20:53:13): no
"Erik" (20:53:18): we don't know if it was her
"Erik" (20:53:22): and we can't afford to lose any allies
"Erik" (20:53:26): I will talk to her about it
Troyan X Warrior (20:53:38): ... whatever
Troyan X Warrior (20:53:42): then whow as it?
"Erik" (20:58:11): don't know alex
"Erik" (20:58:21): but we can't afford any more mishaps
"Erik" (20:58:24): or you are toast.
Troyan X Warrior (20:58:35): in case you didnt notice im toast already
"Erik" (20:59:18): we have challenges to throw
"Erik" (20:59:20): and then to win
"Erik" (20:59:25): so we can steal you back ^_^
Troyan X Warrior (20:59:51): yeah good luck with that, this fuckers will also throw challenges, i bet
"Erik" (21:00:06): dont let them
"Erik" (21:00:08): you have you.
Troyan X Warrior (21:00:50): yipee, such a strong team



"Erik" (21:20:36): you still around? ^_^
Troyan X Warrior (21:20:47): mhm
"Erik" (21:20:51): are you okay
Troyan X Warrior (21:20:58): no, im pissed
"Erik" (21:21:13): talk to me
"Erik" (21:21:19): just about the whole thing?
Troyan X Warrior (21:22:04): im angry that everyone thinsk im your fucking lap dog, im tired of people using me and just fucking me over, im tired of fake friends. im tired of not being able to do anyone and im tired no one ever fucking appreciates anything i do for them
"Erik" (21:22:32): You're going to have to explain each and every one of those
"Erik" (21:22:38): who thinks you are my lap dog??
Troyan X Warrior (21:22:46): every single fucking person
Troyan X Warrior (21:23:02): its like "zomg alex schanged tribes with erik because he loves him" he is fucking playing the gamer for erik to win
"Erik" (21:23:32): who said that!
Troyan X Warrior (21:23:43): everyone
"Erik" (21:23:46): Who.
Troyan X Warrior (21:23:49): apparently everyone saw the pm
"Erik" (21:23:55): who is everyone
"Erik" (21:23:56): and which PM
Troyan X Warrior (21:24:10): the one lorii spread around
"Erik" (21:24:19): who is telling you this Alex?
"Erik" (21:25:05): is it Jeffrey?
Troyan X Warrior (21:25:12): of course not
Troyan X Warrior (21:25:16): its just what everyone thinks
"Erik" (21:25:32): how do you know that?
"Erik" (21:25:34): tell me.
Troyan X Warrior (21:25:50): because people talk
Troyan X Warrior (21:25:56): and because thats the way i feel they see me
"Erik" (21:26:28): okay well don't
"Erik" (21:26:39): Kirin just told me she thinks you and Jeffrey need to be "watched out for"
Troyan X Warrior (21:26:43): ive been throwing my whole game for you erik
"Erik" (21:26:44): because you're an obvious Final 2
"Erik" (21:26:45): lol
Troyan X Warrior (21:26:53): yeah go kirin
"Erik " (21:26:59): How have you been throwing your game for me?
Troyan X Warrior (21:27:10): nevermind If you can't see it then you obviously think this is the way I'm suposed to act, hoorah...
"Erik" (21:27:15): other than the switch thing which was just done out of convenience
"Erik" (21:27:30): as if we're gonna let you get voted out
"Erik" (21:28:01): okay and how does no one appreciate anything you do
Troyan X Warrior (21:28:46): no one even said thanks for changing tribes, like i bust my fucking ass thinking of plans to keep everyone safe, to make everyone reach merge and we can play together and how do they thank me? oh yes lets throw the mexican kid under the bus and fuck him over
"Erik" (21:29:12): Only Joey and possibly Lorii did that, and they are idiots
"Erik" (21:29:18): we'll fix it
"Erik" (21:29:19): don't worry
Troyan X Warrior (21:29:47): yeah okay

[Alex]

Episode VIII - "I'm not meant to be a porn star"

Here starts the fight for my life.

You know? Alcohol really helps clear things up, at least the day after it puts things in a much more clear perspective. Yesterday I was pissed, I wanted to murder Lorii and everyone said they would talk to her for me. No, I'm done hiding behind other people, last season I was nothing like this, I was in your face, I was loud and everyone loved it. So why am I being a wimp this season and taking the abck seat? Erik. Well, sorry Erik but I'm not going to be a wimp no more. I'm done that you try to use your likable and amazing personality to solve things, I can solve things too, I'm not stupid you know? Everyone thinks I am because I act stupid but that's just a cover up, I'm actually pretty damn smart and I'm about to use that to win this game. So sure, I am in a tribe where my number is next, but I have to fight for immunity, I have to tell the others to throw the challenge, there's Jason's plan and then I could always strike a deal with the fans.

Am I going to backstab every single one of my friends? Not likely, not right now either way, but I want to win and I know some people can not be around at the end, and as much as it pains me to say it I have no chance to win against Erik in a Final 2, non at all. The polls Kirin made about dating showed that Erik is clearly the favorite, no, looks wasn't all that mattered there because it was personality and everyone loves Erik, including me. Which is why he is such a threat to my personal winning. How am I going to get rid of Erik without him hating me until the game is over and he reads this? [which btw Erik, I love you but I want to win] I'm going to use Jeffrey and let him know I have a F2 with Erik, Jeffrey wants a F2 with me so he would eventually target Erik [because I want Erik in the jury, of course] and then I can play the game a little more individually, well I am already as I come up with that plan which would bring a slight upset in the end.

What else? I need to get super social with the fans, no more "us vs them" because right now the fuckers have the power over me so it's time to kiss ass and act nice and lovey. Then I talk to Lorii, I let her know I know what she did and that while I was pissed I would like to know where she was comming from and what that means to us. I also keep my social game with Britti/Erik/Jeffrey. I still have Olyvia wrapped around my little finger so that's amazing, I know I can rely on her as long as RB is gone. I need to figure a way to get him out soon. Alyssa, she is a death cause, I can't trust her with anything because she goes around comfronting people and being a bitch which is why no one likes her, possible F2 partner? Hm. Then Jason adores me and I adore him, I convinced him the only reason he wasn't voted out during the Jess vote was because I protected him so he thinks he owes me. Perfect, another minion.

Joey. Um, Joey. I'm acting as if it isn't a big deal, he says his next vote is for Alyssa so I might just vote Alyssa and hope for the best, after all who the fuck gives a damn about Alyssa? I need to watch for Joey, he just showed he isn't as mind-fuckable as I might have initially thought.

I need to understand that in this game I'm not the "Golden Boy" like I might have been seen last game, this game I'm "the idiot who is willing to risk his game for Erik". Which basically means the bitch needs to come back, the cold hearted Arabian Alex is offificaly back so brace yourself people because you are in for a bumpy ride!

Alex

[Alex]

Ta-dah, progress. Sort of.

"Jeffrey" (12:23:06): sorry, i got disconnected
Troyan X Warrior (12:23:34): yeah right
"Jeffrey" (12:23:45): i would never leave you <3
Troyan X Warrior (12:23:54): lies.
Troyan X Warrior (12:24:06): look theres lorii
"Jeffrey" (12:24:27): truthhh
Troyan X Warrior (12:24:29): i should have a word with her
Troyan X Warrior (12:24:34): im calm now
"Jeffrey" (12:24:39): do it, if you want
Troyan X Warrior (12:24:43): i do
Troyan X Warrior (12:25:28): who talked to her last night? all of you?
"Jeffrey" (12:25:52): yeah, but erik talked to her a bit before we went in a chat
Troyan X Warrior (12:26:00): ah
Troyan X Warrior (12:26:09): he always takes the lead, its a little annoying
"Jeffrey" (12:26:35):
Troyan X Warrior (12:26:41): what?
"Jeffrey" (12:26:45): just appreciate itt
Troyan X Warrior (12:26:53): im tired of doing everything he says
"Jeffrey" (12:27:00): you don't have to then
Troyan X Warrior (12:27:23): im not
Troyan X Warrior (12:27:30): i am gonna have more of a voice now
Troyan X Warrior (12:27:41): he wont like it though
"Jeffrey" (12:28:23): good
Troyan X Warrior (12:28:35): lol why is that good?
"Jeffrey" (12:28:45): that you're gonna have more of a voice
"Jeffrey" (12:28:47): not that he won't like it
Troyan X Warrior (12:29:22): i mean he is obv gonna win
"Jeffrey" (12:29:32): um
"Jeffrey" (12:29:34): no he's not
"Jeffrey" (12:29:40): not as long as i'm in the game
"Jeffrey" (12:29:40): lmao
Troyan X Warrior (12:29:55): i think he has the better chance and he will beat any of us at f2
"Jeffrey" (12:30:23): he has to actually make it there
Troyan X Warrior (12:30:38): well, that means im fucked haha
"Jeffrey" (12:30:45): why?
Troyan X Warrior (12:31:01): idk if i should tell you
Troyan X Warrior (12:31:08): cause that could fuck both of us over
Troyan X Warrior (12:31:15): and while i dont want him to like rule over us
Troyan X Warrior (12:31:21): i dont want him to go out either, you know?
"Jeffrey" (12:31:28): i think you should
"Jeffrey" (12:31:38): i mean, i'm seeing like
"Jeffrey" (12:31:41): F5, F4 boot for him
Troyan X Warrior (12:32:06): i cant boot him though, i promised him f2 which is why i havent officialy said f2 to you
"Jeffrey" (12:32:36): so if it was between him and me you'd vote me off?
Troyan X Warrior (12:33:04): im afraid so i just dont back down from my deals?
Troyan X Warrior (12:33:09): but i mean if you pulled something
Troyan X Warrior (12:33:11): *shrug*
Troyan X Warrior (12:34:13): and im telling you this because i tots trust you and i do want to go to the end together
Troyan X Warrior (12:34:16): so i hope you understand
Troyan X Warrior (12:34:24): i mean i like dont want you to feel betrayed
"Jeffrey" (12:34:43): i sort of do
"Jeffrey" (12:34:49): but i guess i have no reason to feel that way
Troyan X Warrior (12:34:54): im sorry jeffrey
Troyan X Warrior (12:34:57): i never promised you f2
Troyan X Warrior (12:35:05): i said f3 which i stand by, but i mean like
Troyan X Warrior (12:37:02): im sorry
"Jeffrey" (12:37:18): whatever
Troyan X Warrior (12:37:55): are you angry?
"Jeffrey" (12:38:01): yes
Troyan X Warrior (12:38:04): why?
"Jeffrey" (12:38:14): why would you go to the F2 with him?
Troyan X Warrior (12:38:20): because we have a deal
Troyan X Warrior (12:38:24): and i never break my deals
"Jeffrey" (12:38:26): a stupid one
Troyan X Warrior (12:38:29): yeah i know
Troyan X Warrior (12:38:35): thats why im telling you
Troyan X Warrior (12:38:40): cause i wanna be f2 with you
Troyan X Warrior (12:38:42): but i cant
Troyan X Warrior (12:40:00): do you know what im saying?
"Jeffrey" (12:40:05): i guess so
Troyan X Warrior (12:40:11): i dont want you to be mad
Troyan X Warrior (12:41:39): sorry, can you forgive me
"Jeffrey" (12:41:44): yeah
Troyan X Warrior (12:42:02): <33?
"Jeffrey" (12:42:10): i don't wanna talk about it anymore
Troyan X Warrior (12:42:23): ugh
Troyan X Warrior (12:42:27): thats why i need to shut up
"Jeffrey" (12:42:36): obviously i'd rather know
Troyan X Warrior (12:42:56): yeah so you can get mad
"Jeffrey" (12:43:10): nobody ever wants to go to the end with me and i don't know why
Troyan X Warrior (12:43:19): i do
Troyan X Warrior (12:43:21): but i cant
Troyan X Warrior (12:48:57): idk what to say
"Jeffrey" (12:49:05): nothing.
Troyan X Warrior (12:49:11): so the convo ends here?
"Jeffrey" (12:49:21): i want to move on
Troyan X Warrior (12:49:52): okay
Troyan X Warrior (12:49:58): so, asian porn in your conf eh?
"Jeffrey" (12:50:08): yes, corey was frightened when he saw it
Troyan X Warrior (12:50:15): lmao poor corey
Troyan X Warrior (12:50:54): was it too explicit?
"Jeffrey" (12:51:27): i think he's just frightened by naked women
Troyan X Warrior (12:51:33): lmao
Troyan X Warrior (12:57:50): im bored
"Jeffrey" (12:58:32): i'm sorry alex, i'm upset and i sort of don't want to talk right now
"Jeffrey" (12:58:35): can we talk later?
Troyan X Warrior (12:58:47): sorry for upsetting you and ruining your day
"Jeffrey" (12:59:00): i'll just talk to you in a bit
Troyan X Warrior (12:59:10): okay
Troyan X Warrior (12:59:10): bye
"Jeffrey" went away at 12:59:36.

Do I have to spell out everything? Come on, I'm pretty much telling you that if you vote Erik out then we have a F2 and then he get's all offended, *sigh* it's so hard to try and be my old self[/color]



Troyan X Warrior (12:24:48): morning sunshine
"Miss Lorii" (12:26:08): hiii hun
Troyan X Warrior (12:26:13): how are you?
"Miss Lorii" (12:26:46): still feeling pretty crappy.
"Miss Lorii" (12:26:48): you
Troyan X Warrior (12:27:02): about your work?
Troyan X Warrior (12:27:07): im alright, hung over
"Miss Lorii" (12:27:40): lol, well thats good! It means you must have had an alright time : )
Troyan X Warrior (12:27:49): yup, i had fun
Troyan X Warrior (12:27:55): at least during the party
"Miss Lorii" (12:28:28): awesome stuff
Troyan X Warrior (12:28:46): so, lorii, i wanted to have a word with you
"Miss Lorii" (12:29:49): Yup, its okay.. I already know what its about ..
"Miss Lorii" (12:30:09): just give me a min too make up my bed..
"Miss Lorii" (12:30:20): and let my dog out haha
Troyan X Warrior (12:30:29): yeah im sure you do, apparently this people dont think im capable of handling ym own business and they need yo jump in to save the day
Troyan X Warrior (12:30:29): sure
"Miss Lorii" (12:36:21): okay, im back
Troyan X Warrior (12:36:30): wb
"Miss Lorii" (12:36:41): Yeah, i was questioned quite a bit last night..
Troyan X Warrior (12:36:55): i figured, they never let me do anything, hate it
"Miss Lorii" (12:37:14): lol, its okay. I just want to know why you think it was me
Troyan X Warrior (12:37:49): because you are the only one who could have done it, sadly enough and then like after the pm got sent around you started acting like idk different
"Miss Lorii" (12:38:18): How did i act different
Troyan X Warrior (12:39:20): idk, its weird, like just a vibe i got, like you were more cheerful, like normally i am the one iming you and you were the one iming me and looking for me, as if you knew you had done something and you were trying to patch it up by being super super nice
Troyan X Warrior (12:39:39): and i mean honestly, last night i was really angry you had done it to me, but right now, i dont really care anymore, whats done is done
Troyan X Warrior (12:40:21): i just want to know why
"Miss Lorii" (12:43:48): You know what Alex, Im just going to tell you what i told the others... When this game is over and the confessionals are opened up, you 4 (Britti Erik Jeff and yourself) will see where my loyalities lay.. And that too you guys.. so If you whole heartedly believe it was me, thats fine.. but once the game is over I was accept an apology for having the blame put on me.. Ive been with you 4 for so long, I just dont know how me telling the others would help my game.. you guys can vote me out next, or use me to make F5 then vote me out.. but the truth will come out.. and i wont be to blame..
Troyan X Warrior (12:44:22): lorii, dont get that way love
Troyan X Warrior (12:44:26): im not trying to make you feel bad
Troyan X Warrior (12:44:46): and if it really isnt you then i appologize whole heartedly
Troyan X Warrior (12:44:58): like i just dont see who it could be and im confused
"Miss Lorii" (12:45:03): I know, but im just telling you that, still, even though the finger is pointed on me by what i thought was my alliance im still with you guys
"Miss Lorii" (12:46:18): I honestly dont know what my position in this game is anymore, but im with you 4 till its my time to leave.
Troyan X Warrior (12:47:21): i am with you too lorii, yesterday when i told you i wanted us to go far together i was totally honest and the letter thing, well whatever you know? i mean its not that big of a deal, sure it fucks me seeing where im standing in my tribe but its no big deal, i just felt humilliated cause now everyone thinks im eriks lap dog
"Miss Lorii" (12:48:22): Yes, but people will think what they are gonna think. And after this challenge we can get you back over. So your not alone
Troyan X Warrior (12:48:35): i cant go back this round
"Miss Lorii" (12:48:38): omg
"Miss Lorii" (12:48:40): fuck
"Miss Lorii" (12:48:42): i forgot.
"Miss Lorii" (12:49:17): Well, we need someone to go over with you.. so that will at least tie it up. Cause Alyssa will still probably vote with us
Troyan X Warrior (12:49:45): unless she saw the part of the pm where i say she is wreck
"Miss Lorii" (12:50:15): lol, if Alysssa heard about that, i think you would know. She cant really keep her mouth shut lol
Troyan X Warrior (12:50:36): yeah thats true
Troyan X Warrior (12:50:38): lets hope she didnt
"Miss Lorii" (12:51:50): I knoww. But even if we cant get her on ourside, we could try and get the others to vote her out
Troyan X Warrior (12:52:15): yeah true
Troyan X Warrior (12:52:19): sorry for blaming you <3
"Miss Lorii" (12:52:50): Its okay, there is no way i can prove my innocence until this game is over.. lol, so until then i will continue to be the Judas haha
Troyan X Warrior (12:53:14): a hot judas though
"Miss Lorii" (12:53:32): lol, it has its perks.
"Miss Lorii" (12:54:26): I just dont want to leave because everyone thinks im a shady bitch, which will probably happen.
Troyan X Warrior (12:54:56): i dont think it will, wella t least i believe you. if you say it wasnt you then i guess it wasnt you, though that means it was no one
"Miss Lorii" (12:55:39): lol, I know - its retarded , but all will be revealed in time i suppose lol
Troyan X Warrior (12:56:33): <3 dont worry
"Miss Lorii" (12:56:37): I wont.
"Miss Lorii" (12:56:57): I just dont know why anyone would. Whats the benefits of going with the Fans.. there is none..
Troyan X Warrior (12:57:21): unless they feel they arent in the best position with us and they want to improove that
Troyan X Warrior (12:57:30): but like i sent the pm to the core group of people i trusted
"Miss Lorii" (12:58:03): I know what your saying. I just hope us 5 can move on and play hard to get us all as far as we can
Troyan X Warrior (12:58:14): yeah me too
Troyan X Warrior (12:58:20): that would be such a hot f5!
"Miss Lorii" (12:58:29): lol, totally would!
"Miss Lorii" (12:59:07): I think i should get outta bed and start my day. . its 3:30 pm here
"Miss Lorii" (12:59:07): lol
Troyan X Warrior (12:59:19): wow, it is late
"Miss Lorii" (12:59:35): Im lazyyy
Troyan X Warrior (12:59:58): me toooo
Troyan X Warrior (13:00:02): i need to shower
"Miss Lorii" (13:00:30): i think thats what im going to do now, ill tty later on
"Miss Lorii" (13:00:31): xl
"Miss Lorii" (13:00:32): *xo
Troyan X Warrior (13:00:44): bye lorii
"Miss Lorii" went away at 13:01:06.

She bullshitted her way through, I'm sure she knows I'm lying about trusting her and BFF's for ever, she is fake so I'll be fake. She is lying and it's so obvious, sorry Lorii but I'm not going to take it.[/color]

[Alex]

trains offtracks (22:43:15) has entered the room.
RB RichBoyy (22:43:15) has entered the room.
Troyan X Warrior (22:43:15) has entered the room.
"Alyssa" (22:43:16): omg
Esoshnick (22:43:16) has entered the room.
"Alyssa" (22:43:18): i cant type
"Alyssa" (22:43:20): HEY GUYS*
Esoshnick (22:43:21): hey guys
Troyan X Warrior (22:43:21): haie guys¡!
"Alyssa" (22:43:29): alex, you make me feel better about myself
Troyan X Warrior (22:43:32): is joeys comming?
Troyan X Warrior (22:43:35): lamso im glad <3
"Alyssa" (22:43:39): Anyawys, i think for once we need to actually work TOGETHER at something and decide together.
Troyan X Warrior (22:43:52): ig agre
"Alyssa" (22:43:53): on who we want to bring over..
SoJoeysLike (22:44:06) has entered the room.
Troyan X Warrior (22:44:10): joeya hsi <3
"Joey" (22:44:14): hey
"RB" (22:44:18): Hey hey
"Alyssa" (22:44:39): do you guys have any like strong opinions on who youd want over here?
"RB" (22:45:27): I don't really
"RB" (22:45:33): I don't know any of them
"Alyssa" (22:45:58): should we go down the list of their tribe
"Alyssa" (22:46:01): and vote yes/no?
"Joey" (22:46:05): we could do that
Troyan X Warrior (22:46:15): soudns fair to me
"Alyssa" (22:46:33): hopefully everyone votes for themselves.
"Alyssa" (22:46:37): okay
"Joey" (22:46:38): people who get a majority yes
"Joey" (22:46:40): we'll keep in the pool
"Alyssa" (22:46:41): 1. Brittany
"Joey" (22:46:48): Yes
"RB" (22:46:51): I'mma say no on that one. I don't know her much.
Esoshnick (22:46:55): No
"Alyssa" (22:46:57): i dont really see a reason for her to be over here
Troyan X Warrior (22:47:03): no, britti isnt thats good at rchalls
"Joey" (22:47:08): ok brittany is out
"Alyssa" (22:47:11): 2. Erik
"Joey" (22:47:15): he cant be stolen
"RB" (22:47:16): Can't
"Alyssa" (22:47:17): hey guys should we take like the top 3
Esoshnick (22:47:20): ineligible
"Alyssa" (22:47:22): and then decide on them?
"Alyssa" (22:47:25): And yea, sorry.
"Joey" (22:47:33): yea i say the top 3
"Alyssa" (22:47:34): 2. Jason
"Joey" (22:47:40): No
Esoshnick (22:47:40): hes a possiblity
"RB" (22:47:41): Yes
"Alyssa" (22:47:44): i say yes
Troyan X Warrior (22:47:46): me too
"Joey" (22:47:54): okay Jason we'll keep around
"Alyssa" (22:47:57): Top 3 (Jason, ?, ?)
"Alyssa" (22:48:00): 3.
"Alyssa" (22:48:03): Jeffrey
"Alyssa" (22:48:12): i say no
Esoshnick (22:48:13): no
Troyan X Warrior (22:48:13): no
"RB" (22:48:14): I'mma say no
"Joey" (22:48:16): No
"Joey" (22:48:17): lol
"Alyssa" (22:48:18): lol!
"Alyssa" (22:48:20): 4.
"Alyssa" (22:48:22): Lorii
"Joey" (22:48:29): Yes
Esoshnick (22:48:30): shes a possiblity
"Alyssa" (22:48:30): no
Troyan X Warrior (22:48:31): no
"RB" (22:48:32): I'mma say yes
"Alyssa" (22:48:34): Ok
"Alyssa" (22:48:37): Jason, Lorii
"Alyssa" (22:48:41): 5. Olyvia
"RB" (22:48:42): And I'll say yes to Lyv
Esoshnick (22:48:44): no
"Joey" (22:48:45): No
"Alyssa" (22:48:55): ummm
"Alyssa" (22:49:00): ill say yes to spice things up?
"Joey" (22:49:11): alex, your the deciding vote
Troyan X Warrior (22:49:25): what?
Troyan X Warrior (22:49:27): sorry
Troyan X Warrior (22:49:30): olyvia?
"Joey" (22:49:32): yes or no to lyc
Troyan X Warrior (22:49:41): ummm
Troyan X Warrior (22:49:49): okay yes
"Alyssa" (22:50:00): i havent talked to olyvia since i told her she was old like week 1
"Alyssa" (22:50:02): but what the helll!
"Alyssa" (22:50:11): okay. Olyvia, Jason, Lorii
Troyan X Warrior (22:50:15): omg s olyvia vs alyssa fights <3
"RB" (22:50:40): LOL
"Joey" (22:51:02): ok
"RB" (22:51:03): Someone voted already?
"Alyssa" (22:51:05): who..
"Joey" (22:51:06): should we
"Joey" (22:51:09): eliminate someone now
"RB" (22:51:11): Not me, but someone in the poll
"Joey" (22:51:12): and narrow it down to two?
Troyan X Warrior (22:51:42): how do we elimiante someone?
"Joey" (22:51:49): say which of the three
"Joey" (22:51:53): we want here least?
"Alyssa" (22:52:19): wait
"Alyssa" (22:52:22): tuckers on?
"Alyssa" (22:52:22): wtf
"RB" (22:52:38): Tucker hasn't been responding to anyone and didn't go to the IC with us
"Alyssa" (22:52:42): oh....
Troyan X Warrior (22:52:48): so eliamitne?
Troyan X Warrior (22:52:51): i have tog so soon
"Alyssa" (22:53:17): this is hard.
"RB" (22:53:21): I say we don't need Alyssa/Lyv drama lol
"RB" (22:53:33): Even though it might make me laugh :x
"Joey" (22:53:33): I dont want olyvia
"Joey" (22:53:35): shes not active
Troyan X Warrior (22:54:25): whats if we ratehr say why we want them?
"RB" (22:55:07): I'd want Jason because I know him and he is active, I'd want Lorii because she seems active and friendly not like that other stupid newf Jess
Troyan X Warrior (22:55:19): lorii is akind of bead at challeneges thgouh
"Alyssa" (22:55:29): lorii just got 7th place....
"Joey" (22:55:44): Id prefer Lorii over Jason or Olyvia
"Alyssa" (22:55:55): id prefer jason over lorii
Troyan X Warrior (22:55:59): yeah same here
Troyan X Warrior (22:56:03): jason is steronger
"Alyssa" (22:56:06): id prefer olyvia over lorii
Troyan X Warrior (22:56:06): and i dont want to loose
Troyan X Warrior (22:56:10): cause we all know im toast
"Alyssa" (22:56:17): i feel like lorii is always out just partying or w/e?
"Alyssa" (22:56:26): exactly. i wanna win as much as possible
Troyan X Warrior (22:57:07): i dont eant to loose, obviously
"RB" (22:57:44): Well who would the person we pick send away too is a thing?
Esoshnick (22:58:04): Lorii would send ALyssa
Esoshnick (22:58:08): because she is already immune
Esoshnick (22:58:13): so she said it wouldnt hurt her
"Joey" (22:58:14): jason would send me probably
"Alyssa" (22:58:37): i dont want to go over there..
"Joey" (22:58:48): all your besties are over there
"Alyssa" (22:58:51): no they arent
"Joey" (22:58:55): ok lol
"Alyssa" (22:58:58): who am i besties with?
"Joey" (22:59:15): Im not getting into it with you tonight
"RB" (22:59:19): drama **stays outta it**
"Alyssa" (22:59:21): im not trying to fight.
Troyan X Warrior (22:59:33): guys lorii wont help us win
Troyan X Warrior (23:00:44): sielnce
"Alyssa" (23:00:51): ughhh
"Joey" (23:00:57): Im voting Lorii
"Joey" (23:01:01): I prefer her over Jason
Esoshnick (23:01:03): I guess I am too then
Troyan X Warrior (23:01:09): oh greatness
Troyan X Warrior (23:01:12): uim fucked
"Alyssa" (23:01:25): obv i am the one whos fucked.
Troyan X Warrior (23:01:34): you ar e ot going to get vote dout babe
"Joey" (23:01:34): you're immune
"Alyssa" (23:01:37): um
"Alyssa" (23:01:38): next round
"Joey" (23:01:40): regardless of where you are
Troyan X Warrior (23:01:48): unlike me who is about to get the shaft
Troyan X Warrior (23:02:52): can you gusys t leats tell me why im gonna be votes sout?
"Joey" (23:02:58): alex
"Joey" (23:03:00): we won immunity
"Joey" (23:03:06): we arent even going to tribal council
Troyan X Warrior (23:03:11): nex tround joey
"Joey" (23:03:16): who says we are going to lose?
"Joey" (23:03:20): and who says your going to get voted out?
"Alyssa" (23:03:27): im sure if people wnated it enough
"Alyssa" (23:03:28): itd happen
Troyan X Warrior (23:03:30): cause lorii wont help win challenges, lets be realistic
"RB" (23:03:39): We won tonight without Tucker
Troyan X Warrior (23:03:42): i love elorii but she isnt so good at ehcallneges
"RB" (23:03:45): I am sure we can win
"Alyssa" (23:03:47): alex
"Alyssa" (23:03:49): its too late
"Alyssa" (23:03:50): they already voted.
Esoshnick (23:04:09): sorry guys
Troyan X Warrior (23:04:09): well alyssa i hope you have a good time at zeta, sayhelklo to everyone for me
"Alyssa" (23:04:25): see you out of the game next week
Troyan X Warrior (23:04:35): we will be prejurors together <3
"Alyssa" (23:04:50): hell yes!
"Joey" (23:05:08): any one of us could go
"Alyssa" (23:05:14): k joey
Troyan X Warrior (23:05:18): oh please
Troyan X Warrior (23:05:21): give me a fucking break
Troyan X Warrior (23:05:31): im sorry jeoym, but im not as stupid as i look
"Joey" (23:05:36): I know you arent.
Troyan X Warrior (23:05:40): youa re a great guy but thats completely studpif
"Joey" (23:05:40): You arent a good actor either.
Troyan X Warrior (23:05:45): if we loose im cufcked
Troyan X Warrior (23:05:50): acotr?
"Joey" (23:05:52): If we lose
"Joey" (23:05:54): next round
"Joey" (23:05:57): you can get stolen
"Joey" (23:06:04): and then your fine
Troyan X Warrior (23:06:12): og
"Alyssa" (23:06:14): he'll be gone this week
"Alyssa" (23:06:15): lol
Troyan X Warrior (23:06:16): i ahdnt thought of that
"Alyssa" (23:06:23): oh
"Alyssa" (23:06:25): we're immune this week
"RB" (23:06:32): Yeah we're all immune this week
Esoshnick (23:06:34): were all safe this week
"Alyssa" (23:06:35): i forgot about that.
"Joey" (23:06:36): le sigh
"RB" (23:06:40): All of us are fine
Esoshnick (23:06:41): nothing to worry about this week
"Alyssa" (23:06:46): how lame of me having to waste my immunity.
Troyan X Warrior (23:06:51): oh snap
Troyan X Warrior (23:06:52): sorry
"Alyssa" (23:06:54): yeah
Esoshnick (23:06:57): its never a waste Alyssa
Troyan X Warrior (23:07:00): alcohol clouds emy judgement
"Alyssa" (23:07:00): it is a waste
Troyan X Warrior (23:07:07): sorry joey <3
"Alyssa" (23:07:08): to win and win immunity
"Alyssa" (23:07:10): and then get shafted.
Esoshnick (23:07:10): Im sorry you feel that way
Esoshnick (23:07:19): but they could have tried to vote you out over there
Esoshnick (23:07:21): now they cant
Esoshnick (23:07:25): so its not a complete waste
"RB" (23:07:25): If you win the chance to keep immunity you will keep that individual one?
"Alyssa" (23:07:27): Im sorry for a lot of things that happen on this tribe
"RB" (23:07:30): If she takes you
Troyan X Warrior (23:07:30): i better go to ebd before i starts bickering again, sorry guys, good luck and godo gnith
"Alyssa" (23:07:38): night alex

[Alex]

Episode VIII - "I'm not meant to be a porn star"

Step it up.

Alright so last night was crazy, I was slightly intoxicated so I didn|t post a conf, But in the end it all looks up to me, first there was a fight with the Fans + Joey [or Joey's Club], I made an idiot out of myself as I didn't remember the others could kidnap me. Hurricaine Alyssa was a lot calmer than me which was surprising, but it helped us bond so that I|m happy about. Then a fight with Erik, it was very hardcore, we both got really upset and I hurt him which made me feel like shit but he hurt me too, the only difference is he didn|t admitt he had and that he was condescending to me, which I feel he is, if I feel he is then it's because of something. Either way I told him I felt he was and he dennyed and said I just wanted to start a fight *sigh* I always end being the bad guy adnd this time, probably for the first time, it was his fault, I was freaking out and he tellls me to not talk to Lorii cause he is already, WTF? he doesn't understand how that fucks me?
A. Joey's Club know I shared the chat with him.
B. It furthers the "Erik|s bitch" tag that I have attatched to myself.
But he doesn|t get it, then he goes all "I'm not doing this for you, I'm doing this for my game. You can't get mad because I AM playing a hard game." excuse me? so I'm not playing a hard game? Fuck that shit. Good thing is at the end of it all he said he didn't want to talk game with me again so I guess our deal is off, perfect. Then we got personal and it almost made me just send our whole relationship to the trash bin. I couldn't though, I love him so I calmed and appologized.

So, this morning I start making moves for me, fuck the alliance, for starters I made a deal with RB, we'll help each other reach the merge and after we will make sure each other is the last target from our side. Oh 'cause Lorii is def with them now! The whole chat last night prooved it, but I'm being all naive as if I still think Lorii is with us, I would be all "ZOMG Lorii, we are so fucked, we are all alone in Joey's Club territory". I also thought of sending a fake PM about how I fought with everyone and just pretty much bitching at Jeff/Britti/Erik for being douches and have Lorii show it to everyone so they don't assosiate them with me. I also bullshitted to RB telling him I didn|t wknew where I stood cause I had fought with "my friends from the other tribe" because they "babied" me and I was tired of that shit, I think he bought it, maybe I over did it saying I didn't think they would save me... oh well. I did try.

Then I made this plan to save Jason, next round my tribe wins, I make sure Jase comes over, he swaps with one of Joey's club, if that person doesn't win immunity he goes home, if they do win it then Alyssa goes home, I like her but she has no role in my personal game. I convinced Jason I have a long term plan for us ~Final 4~ which doesn|t sound too bad, he was being all moppy about playing for 6th tops and maybe voting with Olyvia for Jeffrey. I had to stop him by telling him how close we are [Jason and me] and how it would all be fine and I won't let him go and all types of bullshit, though in reality I would love to team up with Jason, he is a bright kid and he is also a bigger target than me. Besides Erik I believe he is the only one who might have a big enough target to cover mine, maybe besides Alyssa, but who the fuck would trust Hurricaine Alyssa with plans and schemes?

I'm sure I did more but I can't remember right now, FML... Oh right! I told Jase I had a plan for us and blindsides lines up but we needed his double vote, he said I would always choose BEJ before him but I said "you would be surprised" and I even insinuated "if the right people go we could be F2 together" he seemed to like the idea. I told him to keep my plans between us because BEJ would def not like them, me saying this is simply a test to show his loyalty and to know how big his mouth is. If he says anything I would denny ir and throw him under the bus, after all BEJ would trust me over him.

It might seem like I'm playing all over the place and with every single person, but I figure it's better than being predictable and just doing whatever Erik wants.

I'm sorry Erik, but you said it, I wasn't playing hard enough and I don't want to be a failure.

Alex

[Alex]

Episode IX - "did you think montenegro was in africa just because of "negro"?"

Merge yipee.

Yay, we merged <3. That's such a huge relief for me because like if my tribe lost then I would have had to sacrifice one of my people when they kidnapped me and that would have been like so not cool because like I would have lost an ally and stuff. So I'm so happy for the merge because it looks like we have the numbers, I think Jason and Alyssa would determine how the rest of the game goes and like Lorii if she is smart and like sides with us but like if she does then she is out at five [the most] so that might not be the best for her.

So, Tucker is a douche, we were talking about the tribenames and like he was being a douche about my suggestions so he can fuck himself. Oh and I'm acting like super stupid to him, that way they'll think I'm a smaller target, I hadn't been doing this earlier in the game 'cause like the Favs know better but the Fans don't so if they think I'm stupid that's like way better for me. I said European was the language of Europe, he bought it, but like who is stupid enough to think that?

Right now it's a numbers game and I am trying to keep Jason tight to me, if we manage to get the numbers then Joey's Club + Lorii are the first ones gone and next after them, I might pull the Erik blindside, I'll feel like super bad but I want to win and it is a fact that I can't win with him arouns 'cause everyone would go like "ZOMG you went with him to F2 cause you are his bitch" they wouldn't understand if I explained the situation. Sorry Erik, I love you but I want to win soooo badly.

Alex

[Alex]

Episode IX - "did you think montenegro was in africa just because of "negro"?"

Nerve break down.

Okay so right now I'm kind of nervous, this morning I told Jason my plan to blindside Erik at 7 or 6. He seemed up to it and he said he would keep it between us but I have the feeling he might not, like if he tells anyone I'm so fucked, I don't want to deal with an angered Erik because he knows I no longer want to be F2 with him... I'm nervous. But I have to make Jase feel safe with us, like I know he is a hardcore player and there's no chance in hell he will play for 5th which is why I had to convey my plan for us to make F4, I even threw the idea of me, him, Jeffrey and Alyssa as F4 which wouldn't be such a bad idea as I think I could easily beat Ayssa or Jeffrey at F2 and have a good chance against Jase. Britti and Erik, love them to death but I can't possibly beat either at the end, I need to start thinking further down the line.

Of course there's also the thing Lyv told me when she left, that she self-voted and someone else voted for someoen besides her which I feel might be Jason so that makes me really nervous, I really really like Jason and I want to trust him but he is one shady mofo. That's why I've been asking him who he wants out and stuff, he says he doesn't care so I've been toying with Evan cause I know Alyssa hates him and she might not be able to resist voting him out oposing to Erik which I'm certain it's the other sides vote, he is obviously the leader, he is obviously playing hard and he is smart not to mention a past winner, I really need Erik on the jury so I have a guaranteed vote for me. Likewise I would have Joey and RB's vote as I made deals with them which might guarantee me their votes in the end, last season I just bitched around never thinking of the jury but this season I'm trying to be smarter while playing a dumber role.

I also went to Lorii to like be like "ZOMG girl we have the numbers" and she was like I know right? it's funny how we both know we are deceiving the other and like playing it cool while in reality we are just waiting to vote each other out. But I love Lorii like in a personal level, but gamewise she is a total bitch.

I already have Jeffrey like in my back-pocket so if we can get rid of Evan and Tucker this first two rounds I should be in a position of huge power without anyone realizing it. Everyone would continue to see Erik as the bigger threat while in reality I might just be the HBIC.

One thing that worries me is this:
"Alyssa" (19:58:11): thanks for being a good friend.
Troyan X Warrior (19:58:24): you are welcome?
"Alyssa" (19:58:30):
Troyan X Warrior (19:58:38): what was that about though?
"Alyssa" (19:58:43): oh nothing.
"Alyssa" (19:58:48): just thanking you for being such a good person
Troyan X Warrior (19:59:02): lol okay, you are welcome alyssa. thanks for being such a doll to me <3
"Alyssa" (19:59:07): no problem...
Troyan X Warrior (19:59:52): lmao gotta love the "..."
"Alyssa" (19:59:57): of course.
Troyan X Warrior (20:00:11): its like your signature type thingy
"Alyssa" (20:00:27): yeaaah
Troyan X Warrior (20:10:58): so are you excited about merge? we are in such a great position
"Alyssa" signed off at 21:58:28.
"Alyssa" is offline and will receive your IMs when signing back in.

I think she is beign sarcastic, so how much does she know? And what does she know, how does that affect my game? Paranoia is def the 12th player comming into the merge, wish me luck!

Alex

[Alex]

Episode IX - "did you think montenegro was in africa just because of "negro"?"

Ratted out?

I think Jason ratted me out... I'm so upset, he swore on our friendship that he wouldn't tell and now Erik is being really cold towards me, and he said he talked to Jason, Alyssa and Britti last night, I can't help but think that Jason told them, that is why he is acting so damn cold and distant, I hope that's not the case because then I'll be so upset, I would cry.

Then on top of that Jeffrey and I had a huge argument and he isn't talking to me anymore, what the fuck is wrong with me that everything always goes wrong? I'm more concerned about the Erik thing though, I almost want to confess and tell him I told Jason to see if he would forgive me, my relationship with him is more important than this game, but would he understand that I want him out because he is such a threat? Would he hate me for it? What if he doesn't know? What if by telling him I ruin both my plans and our relationship?

I'm so upset right now. I don't know what to do, but I really really want to cry. Why do I have to like everyone in this stupid cast, so much that I get upset about what they think or feel about me? I'm too sensitive for this stupid game, I just want to be able to relax and do nothing and not worry about who is using me and who I'm using and just be happy...

Ugh, I'm such a whiny baby.

Alex

[Alex]

Episode IX - "did you think montenegro was in africa just because of "negro"?"

I'm a fail.

I'm so over this, I thought this was going to be fun, yes let's play with my friends but it wasn't, this is painful and I'm not having fun at all. I just realy want to cry because this has been such a hard experience for me, I've lost so many friends and cried so many times, fought with so many others and... I'm just an emotional train-wreck.

I don't know if I want to go, but I do know I don't want any of my friends to go, they actually want to be here and play hard with everyone. Today I've wrecked my relationships with Erik, Jeffrey and now Alyssa. She came to me asking about the old PM and when she heard what she wanted she blocked me and left. I'm just so over all this drama, I don't know why this season is being so fucking hard for me, why am I such an idiot and why the fuck am I bad luck magnet? Not only did I fuck myself over but I probably fucked all my friends over as well, I wanna puke. For real.

I'm sorry I was such a waste of cast-space, I wish I could do better but I can't find the energy inside me. Sandy, you are an amazing host and a great friend and I'm sorry for ruining your game. I just really need to move on.

Alex

[Alex]

Episode X -

Erik dethroned.

I got my meds changed today! So I should be in a more stable, less bipolar mood from now on. So, Erik got voted out, I'm sad but it lights up a fire behind my ass that should make me come back from the death, without him I have no fear, I have no one to hurt and I just want to fucking kill the other side.

My side is leaderless so I am the new self-established leader, and I'm going to fuck Joey's club so hard they won't be able to stand up after this, let alone walk. I'm giving them a pep-talk, I'm defintively stepping up and fucking with the fans, I'm gonna eat them up and spit them. I know you guys don't like chats but here is the whole plan, perfection to the fullest. I'm going to turn this bitch around or die trying, please do read:




Troyan X Warrior (23:14:08) has entered the room.
Its Oh So Bjork (23:14:14) has entered the room.
xxYourDead101xx (23:14:35) has entered the room.
"Jason [Fan]" (23:14:47): oh hai
Troyan X Warrior (23:14:50): hey jase
Troyan X Warrior (23:14:53): hey jeffrey
"Jeffrey" (23:14:56): heyo ^_^
Troyan X Warrior (23:14:58): im waiting on britti
Troyan X Warrior (23:15:03): before i start a pep talk

"Jason [Fan]" (23:15:57): is she on right now?
Troyan X Warrior (23:16:07): i think so, isnt she?
x hay gurl hayy (23:16:10) has entered the room.
Troyan X Warrior (23:16:14): brittilicious
"Jeffrey" (23:16:17): there she is.
Troyan X Warrior (23:16:32): okay guys, so i guess i know we all think we are fucked
Troyan X Warrior (23:16:43): but i know if the four of us can stick together
Troyan X Warrior (23:16:47): we can totally pull this shit off
"Britti" (23:16:54): hi
"Jason [Fan]" (23:17:02): heey
Troyan X Warrior (23:17:04): we are all smart, we are all strong and jase, you have an extra vote which could help us so much
Troyan X Warrior (23:17:19): we are not going down without a fight
Troyan X Warrior (23:17:29): i know i have been way bipolar lately and all voer the place
Troyan X Warrior (23:17:44): but now i have new meds [yay] so im here and im here to give ym all for you guys
Troyan X Warrior (23:18:07): i want us to suceed and i know we can do it
"Britti" (23:18:15): i feel sick
Troyan X Warrior (23:18:20): we just have to find a crack on their alliance and we will do it
Troyan X Warrior (23:18:24): awww babe, whats wrong?
"Jason [Fan]" (23:18:31): britti
Troyan X Warrior (23:18:45): guess im not so good at pep talks haha
"Jason [Fan]" (23:18:50): lol
"Jeffrey" (23:19:01): well
"Jeffrey" (23:19:08): we all need to be honest with eachother
"Jeffrey" (23:19:09): for starters
"Britti" (23:19:12): no your pep talks are good
"Britti" (23:19:39): yes
"Britti" (23:19:42): honesty plz
"Jason [Fan]" (23:19:49): srry
"Britti" (23:19:53): i honestly dont care if you are doing something that will upset me
"Britti" (23:19:58): you can ask jason from previous games
"Britti" (23:20:03): i will talk to you in a calm manor
"Britti" (23:20:15): jason u tried to be honest
"Britti" (23:20:19): schedualing just failed today
"Jason [Fan]" (23:20:36): yeeea
"Jason [Fan]" (23:20:52): i mentioned it to alex too :/
"Jason [Fan]" (23:21:13): and then i got badgered for my vote so i just submitted
Troyan X Warrior (23:22:28): honestly, in my opinion its fine. like you did it whatever, now we need to stick together all four of us or we are fucked
"Jeffrey" (23:22:48): right
"Jason [Fan]" (23:22:52): yeea because when I idd it i figured we still had alyssa :/
"Jeffrey" (23:23:27): i just wanna know like, is there anything that all of you know that might help?
"Jeffrey" (23:23:35): cause those other ppl don't really talk all that much to me
"Britti" (23:23:38): Uhm
"Britti" (23:23:41): I know tucker from previous game
"Britti" (23:23:42): s
"Britti" (23:23:52): and i could try talkiong to lorii
"Britti" (23:23:58): but i dunno honestly i think they know they hold the power now
Troyan X Warrior (23:24:13): i say we just talk to everyone, not you jase. i think if you make it seem like you are with them then they might share good info with you
Troyan X Warrior (23:24:32): but me, jerffrey and britti we should just snoop out and see if we can get something to help us get inside and pull one of them over
"Jeffrey" (23:25:08): joey seemed sort of genuinely confused today
"Jeffrey" (23:25:13): about what to do next
"Jason [Fan]" (23:25:27): dont believe joey js
"Jason [Fan]" (23:25:31): u have a better shot with lorii
Troyan X Warrior (23:25:41): we should work on both
Troyan X Warrior (23:25:48): and if we can find a crack on he fans then them too
Troyan X Warrior (23:25:53): we need anything we can get
"Britti" (23:25:53): WTF
"Jeffrey" (23:25:55): lorii has been itching to side with the fans for a longgg time though
"Jason [Fan]" (23:25:56): well lorii/joey r a pair
"Britti" (23:25:59): MY KARMA HAS GONE FROM 15 TO FUCKING 9
"Britti" (23:26:01): IN TWO DAYS
"Britti" (23:26:03): i hate people
"Jason [Fan]" (23:26:04): so when u talk about deals and shit make sure they're both included
"Jeffrey" (23:26:06): i'll exalt
Troyan X Warrior (23:26:11): we will exalt you love, dont get all fuzzy k?
"Britti" (23:26:15): ty jeffrey ill exalt you too
"Britti" (23:26:20): i just dunno who is smiting me
"Jason [Fan]" (23:26:26): not i said the fly
Troyan X Warrior (23:26:27): whoever it is ill kick their fucking ass
"Jeffrey" (23:26:43): someone's jealous that you got a love letter from alex
Troyan X Warrior (23:26:45): but yeah, we need to turn one of them to gain majority with the double vote
"Britti" (23:26:51): lol true jeffrey
"Britti" (23:26:59): ur at 1 now jeffrey
"Jeffrey" (23:27:03): omg <333
"Jason [Fan]" (23:27:09): well the 3 fans r locked together
"Jason [Fan]" (23:27:16): and then joey/lorii r locked
"Jeffrey" (23:27:24): is there a particular fan that joey/lorii dislike?
"Jeffrey" (23:27:30): or do any of the fans dislike joey/lorii, even?
"Jason [Fan]" (23:27:35): nope :/
"Jason [Fan]" (23:27:44): they are pretty good with everyone
Troyan X Warrior (23:28:09): i say we just appeal to their personal feelings
Troyan X Warrior (23:28:28): like lorii and joey are our friends, just tell them to cut us some slack
"Jason [Fan]" (23:28:37): they wont
"Britti" (23:28:40): i can definately make it look like i have no one now
Troyan X Warrior (23:28:41): there has to be a way guys
"Jason [Fan]" (23:28:42): dont take that appraoch
"Britti" (23:28:52): i can play the loner
"Jeffrey" (23:28:54): i think we'd have to come on a little stronger
"Jeffrey" (23:28:55): personally
"Britti" (23:28:55): that might work
"Jason [Fan]" (23:28:56): u can do that
"Jeffrey" (23:29:06): i mean, personally, if i was lorii or joey
"Jeffrey" (23:29:08): and you came to me like that
"Jeffrey" (23:29:09): i'd be like
"Jeffrey" (23:29:11): "too bad."
"Jason [Fan]" (23:29:11): but being loner doesnt help alex jeffrey much :/
"Britti" (23:29:19): but i could get INFO
"Britti" (23:29:20): or try
"Jason [Fan]" (23:29:31): well what info u need??
Troyan X Warrior (23:29:32): that sounds good britti
"Jason [Fan]" (23:30:07): if u guys somehow make it seem like ur disconnected it may work
"Jason [Fan]" (23:30:17): and the fact that the fans r so tight might make em flip
"Jason [Fan]" (23:30:25): if they think u 3 r dysfunctional
Troyan X Warrior (23:30:31): we could play it as to erik was our connection alliance wise
"Jason [Fan]" (23:30:36): mmhmm
Troyan X Warrior (23:30:43): jase, do you think you could sell them the story?
"Jason [Fan]" (23:30:49): mmhmm
"Jason [Fan]" (23:31:01): they know u/jeffrey were fighting the other night bout sumthin
Troyan X Warrior (23:31:03): like if you tell them we arent too close without erik and we just were together because of him or some shut
Troyan X Warrior (23:31:10): oh yes, jeffrey lets play that shit up
"Jason [Fan]" (23:31:17): and britti culd act like shes pissed at u about u wanting erik out
Troyan X Warrior (23:31:17): at the challenge ill say something and you flip out on me
"Jeffrey" (23:31:17): okayy
Troyan X Warrior (23:31:26): yup, that one works one
"Jeffrey" (23:31:26): i was actually pretty cold about you when i was talking to joey anyway
Troyan X Warrior (23:31:39): now we need to find a way to disconect me and britti
Troyan X Warrior (23:31:48): after the love letter i doubt they would think we arent close
"Jeffrey" (23:31:55): well
"Jeffrey" (23:32:03): you did fight with erik
"Jeffrey" (23:32:08): britti could be pissed about that
Troyan X Warrior (23:32:12): oh yes
"Jeffrey" (23:32:18): like jason just said
Troyan X Warrior (23:32:21): so then jeffrey and britti, you guys were never really close
Troyan X Warrior (23:32:32): we can act it that way, erikw as the glue
"Jeffrey" (23:32:34): yeah britti never liked me after i called her a bitch, anyways
Troyan X Warrior (23:32:57): okay sounds like we have good excuses now, jase you oughta sell this to them
Troyan X Warrior (23:33:12): jeffrey we would stage a fight, be harsh and be an asshole, make sure it doesnt sound fake
Troyan X Warrior (23:33:19): lets try and divide their votes
"Britti" (23:33:23): yeah jeffrey called me a bitch last nite
"Britti" (23:33:25):
Troyan X Warrior (23:33:26): illg o to them about voting you jeffrey
"Britti" (23:33:29): a racist bitch at that
Troyan X Warrior (23:33:33): and you tell them about voting me
"Jason [Fan]" (23:33:33): yea alex
"Jeffrey" (23:33:34): lmaooo ^_^
"Jason [Fan]" (23:33:36): make it seem like
"Jason [Fan]" (23:33:40): ur throwing him undert he bus
Troyan X Warrior (23:33:43): yeah
"Jeffrey" (23:33:48): i guess it will be easy for me to target you
"Jeffrey" (23:33:51): since you wanted to quit anyway
Troyan X Warrior (23:33:56): at the challenge ill make an "indirect comment to him
"Britti" (23:33:59): im a jinkie!
"Jeffrey" (23:34:06): you are
Troyan X Warrior (23:34:07): and just say im a douche after we fight and you hate me
Troyan X Warrior (23:34:11): you are good hating
"Jeffrey" (23:34:15):
Troyan X Warrior (23:34:17): <3
Troyan X Warrior (23:34:25): wer just oughta divide their votes
Troyan X Warrior (23:34:29): see if we can find a crack
Troyan X Warrior (23:34:34): and vote together
Troyan X Warrior (23:34:36): and bam, we win!
"Jeffrey" (23:35:28): i'm just sort of afraid they wouldn't divide the votes
"Jason [Fan]" (23:35:45): they just might
"Jason [Fan]" (23:35:47): if they all dont agree
"Jason [Fan]" (23:36:13): say u go to the fans bout voting out alex
"Jason [Fan]" (23:36:18): theyll figure them 3
"Jason [Fan]" (23:36:20): plus u
"Jason [Fan]" (23:36:25): and theyd assume theyd have m3 is 5
"Jason [Fan]" (23:36:31): they wouldnt worry about lorii/joeys vote
Troyan X Warrior (23:36:34): yeah, i think we could def work it
Troyan X Warrior (23:36:40): its out onyl shot jeffrey
Troyan X Warrior (23:37:01): worst case scenario its a tie and we beat them
Troyan X Warrior (23:37:47): and we vote for the weakest link together
Troyan X Warrior (23:37:57): is everyone fine with this? i dont wanna seem like im pushy
"Jason [Fan]" (23:38:07): what else can we do??
"Jeffrey" (23:38:11): we've got nothing else
Troyan X Warrior (23:38:24): lmao so you dont like the plan, so whory
"Jeffrey" (23:38:34): i didn't say i didn't like it
"Jeffrey" (23:38:41): i just have reservations about everything
Troyan X Warrior (23:38:43): i just think we really have no choice but to do this and do our best, we cant go out without a fight
Troyan X Warrior (23:39:39): so are we all in?
"Britti" (23:39:47): yup
Troyan X Warrior (23:40:03): awsome, guys i love you all, and im serious. i want us to do good together
"Jason [Fan]" (23:40:11): yeeees
"Jason [Fan]" (23:40:18): and i dont blame u if u dont trust me now
"Jason [Fan]" (23:40:27): but rlly that vote wasnt against u guys it was just erik
"Jason [Fan]" (23:40:30): cuz i didnt trust him
"Jeffrey" (23:40:44): he was a threat anyway tbh
"Jeffrey" (23:40:47): he'd have to go eventually
"Jeffrey" (23:40:51): i just hate that it was premature
Troyan X Warrior (23:41:01): i wont say shit about the matter
"Britti" (23:41:32): it was a game move, it was made, now we move on.
"Jason [Fan]" (23:42:32): kk
Troyan X Warrior (23:42:46): <333
"Jason [Fan]" (23:46:51): i have another idea too
"Jeffrey" (23:46:59): wut!
Troyan X Warrior (23:47:15): what is it?
"Britti" (23:47:23):
x hay gurl hayy (11:46:31 PM): sleep well!

just tru fax (11:46:45 PM): i will my pillow is going to get some great head
"Britti" (23:47:35): lmao
"Jason [Fan]" (23:47:36): LOL
"Britti" (23:47:38): i thought that joke was funny
"Britti" (23:47:40): wanted to share
Troyan X Warrior (23:47:41): lmao
"Jeffrey" (23:47:44): lmaooooooooooooo
"Jason [Fan]" (23:47:47): well last night when the fans and JL were talking about who to vote
"Jason [Fan]" (23:48:04): they were under the impression Jeffrey was like an outsider
"Jason [Fan]" (23:48:52): i culd tell em i showed jeffrey convo logs or sumthing about how he was fucked down the road or sumthin and that is fed the fire of w/e happened with jeffrey and alex
"Jason [Fan]" (23:49:10): and now he wants work with lorii/joey/me or sumthing
"Jason [Fan]" (23:49:18): the more dysfunctional u 3 seem
"Jason [Fan]" (23:49:19): the better
Troyan X Warrior (23:49:26): sounds perfect
Troyan X Warrior (23:49:32): just tell us the story so we can get it all straight
"Jeffrey" (23:49:42): such perfect assumption on their part <3
"Jason [Fan]" (23:49:55): i tell em i talked to jeffrey
"Jason [Fan]" (23:50:09): and rattled his cage and throw u and britti under the bus to try and make him not pissed at me anymore
"Jason [Fan]" (23:50:21): and now jeffrey wants to work with lorii/joey and me
Troyan X Warrior (23:50:37): that would be perfect and then we can stage the fight and i can go plead to them to vote jeffrey out for being a douche
"Jason [Fan]" (23:50:45): if we can get lorii/joey to feel in control
"Jason [Fan]" (23:50:51): they may wana split up the fans a bit
"Jason [Fan]" (23:50:55): since they're so solid
Troyan X Warrior (23:51:07): thats perfect
Troyan X Warrior (23:51:16): what do you guys think? b and jeffrey?
"Jeffrey" (23:51:25): i'm down with that
"Britti" (23:51:27): anything that doesn't get us 9th place
Troyan X Warrior (23:51:32): lmao <3
Troyan X Warrior (23:51:40): okay jeffrey, when we fight make it intense, go personal
Troyan X Warrior (23:51:43): dont hold back shit
Troyan X Warrior (23:52:03): just make it so real they cant doubt it
"Jeffrey" (23:52:15): i'll brainstorm
Troyan X Warrior (23:52:15): with the story they we should be golden for them to buy it
"Jeffrey" (23:52:19): i'm good at picking out flaws
Troyan X Warrior (23:52:29): pull every single dirty laundry you have
Troyan X Warrior (23:52:35): pull my love for erik into it
Troyan X Warrior (23:52:37): i dont care
Troyan X Warrior (23:52:45): britti and jason help him pull every single flaw in me
"Jason [Fan]" (23:52:53): u talk a lot
"Jason [Fan]" (23:52:56): ur insincere
Troyan X Warrior (23:52:58): ill attack you right back and just be a whiny baby about it
"Jason [Fan]" (23:53:00): bad breathe
Troyan X Warrior (23:53:03): im not insincere whore
Troyan X Warrior (23:53:05): but yeah use it
Troyan X Warrior (23:53:07): say i sound fake
"Britti" (23:53:12): you're niave
"Jason [Fan]" (23:53:13): lolol im jk alex
"Britti" (23:53:17): you thought i lived in an igloo
Troyan X Warrior (23:53:18): its fine jase
Troyan X Warrior (23:53:21): im stupid, good
"Britti" (23:53:26): NIAVE
"Jeffrey" (23:53:28): you thought spain was in the middle of europe
"Britti" (23:53:28): not stupid
"Jeffrey" (23:53:29): so IGNORANT.
"Jeffrey" (23:53:32): *naive
Troyan X Warrior (23:53:34): ill continue up my charade that im depressed and i wanna go
"Jason [Fan]" (23:53:36): well if alex
"Jason [Fan]" (23:53:38): yes
"Jason [Fan]" (23:53:45): and jeffrey we gotta talk to lorii/joey
"Jason [Fan]" (23:53:48): and theyll wana keep u
Troyan X Warrior (23:53:54): "omg jeffrey like so hurt me, i just want to go, this is too much"
"Jason [Fan]" (23:53:58): while the fans wll wanna keep alex for being a nonthreat
"Jeffrey" (23:54:09): yeah, i defo will start kissing some ass to them
Troyan X Warrior (23:54:11): ill just outwhine the fuck out of everything
"Jason [Fan]" (23:54:20): and then ill talk to the fans about getting rid of u or sum thin and theyll fall apart
Troyan X Warrior (23:54:50): i think it can def work guys
Troyan X Warrior (23:55:20): we just need to seem so disfunctional that they would just wont care if they split cause we would not pair up
"Jeffrey" (23:55:57): mmhmmm
Troyan X Warrior (23:56:06): okay guys, i have to leave now
"Britti" (23:56:20): good night alex thanks for everything
Troyan X Warrior (23:56:21): i love all three of you [im not insincere jason, dont roll your eyes or ill cut your balls]
"Britti" (23:56:21): <3
Troyan X Warrior (23:56:32): good night, sleep tight and good luck to us, we can so do this
"Jason [Fan]" (23:56:33): alex i was jk
"Jason [Fan]" (23:56:35): ugh w/e
"Jason [Fan]" (23:56:35): bye
Troyan X Warrior (23:56:41): im kidding too idiot
"Jason [Fan]" (23:56:46): sure u are
"Jason [Fan]" (23:56:47): have fun
"Britti" (23:56:48): DONT BE DYSFUNCTIONAL
"Jason [Fan]" (23:56:50): ttyl
"Britti" (23:56:51): UGH
Troyan X Warrior (23:56:59): we are practicing you ...!
Troyan X Warrior (23:57:03): i cant insult britti
"Britti" (23:57:08): LOL
"Jason [Fan]" (23:57:12): lolololol
"Britti" (23:57:12): yes u can
"Jason [Fan]" (23:57:23): go get crunk plz alex
Troyan X Warrior (23:57:31): lmao drunkness
Troyan X Warrior (23:57:38): night folks
"Britti" (23:57:41): night

Yes bitches, Sobbie Robbie V.2.0. is gone and old Alex is back and he is not going anywhere.

Alex

[Alex]

Episode X - "And I want us to have a fat cat called Fluffy Erik Jr."

And the Oscar goes to...

... me! No regrets, no mood changes, just me. I am back into this game and I am back to kick some major fucking ass. I have been keeping up with my whole act that I want out of the game, that it ruins my relationships with people and that I'm just so tired, that I should have been gone instead of Erik and I feel guilty about it, keeping up pretending to have mood swings, like I'm happy and then I'm sad and just playing up the whole "my meds don't work, I'm a bipolar SOB and I want out" excuse, oh fuck yeah. Evan bought it yesterday and I would work on the others today, I told Lorii I was feeling fine but then I also had a mood swing and I was so sad Erik was gone, I feel a little guilty lying to Lorii about my mental health because I think she cares and she is a great friend, but she chose the wrong side so I have to anihilate her.

Once the challenge starts topnight I'll make a comment like "I just hope this doesn't fuck up my relationship with people more, even though it's obvious some people aren't worth my time", then Jeffrey explodes [we practiced yesterday, it was intense, the intense way that makes everyone feel so uncomfortable that you don't doubt it's a charade] and I bitch back, I end claiming I no longer want out and he has lighted up a fire under me and that he is fucking gone this round, at Tribal I keep up the charade and ask everyone to vote Jeffrey out with me and he comes back at me saying he would vote for me, I swear on everything I have that I'm voting Jeffrey and I won't sway, I cross my fingers and hope they forgive me once the move is over. The four of us and Jason's extra vote band together wíth the divided votes and BAM one of them is gone, pobably Lrii or Evan as we perceived them as the easiest to beat at tie-breakers.

Tie-breaker scares the shit out of me, unless it's Arabia's tie-breaker since I have my list saved, whipee-doo! I am really really bad at challenges and also the fact starting Tuesday I'm going to be drolling over the companionship of the most gorgeous person ever to step on Earth I might be a little aloof, but if this works and we get the majority I have nothing to worry about and I can just enjoy.

Which reminds me, Sandy I would like to have a word with you about my one week vacation. Please

Alex

[Alex]

Here it's me selling it to Joey:

Troyan X Warrior (12:26:02): joeyrgina george <3
"Joey" (12:28:34): yea wtf is with that lol
Troyan X Warrior (12:28:55): regina george + joey = joeyrgina george, its pronounced like georgina
"Joey" (12:29:17): lmao
Troyan X Warrior (12:29:53): how are you?
"Joey" (12:30:05): im okay you?
Troyan X Warrior (12:30:18): bleh, trying to be fine haha
"Joey" (12:30:35): whats wrong
Troyan X Warrior (12:31:43): eriks gone haha, i really thought you guys would just vote me up and spare me the whole game but im trying to enjoy myself right now, just joke around and stuff until my number comes
"Joey" (12:32:06): dont stress out over it, its just a game
Troyan X Warrior (12:33:06): yeah i know, but like i feel it is ruining some friendships and stuff, and that upswets me
"Joey" (12:33:37): i dont think so, its just a game
"Joey" (12:33:51): if you let a game ruin ur friendships, ur friendship wasnt that strong to begin with
Troyan X Warrior (12:34:09): i guess, idk im just upset about it, cause like everyone is angry at me
Troyan X Warrior (12:36:35): like you know how last round i asked to be voted out? everyone got angry at me for asking that like erik fought with me and jeffrey bitched at me because they thought it was fucking them and im just like "dude i just want to go home and im asking them to let you guys stay and you bitch at me, wtf"
Troyan X Warrior (12:37:40): im just tired
"Joey" (12:39:08): well i also heard
"Joey" (12:39:13): you told people you had a plan to blindside erik
Troyan X Warrior (12:39:18): yeah i did
Troyan X Warrior (12:39:23): and erik got pissed
Troyan X Warrior (12:39:27): and britti is also angry
Troyan X Warrior (12:39:59): but like i was fine then erik and me quarreled over it and thats when i got all "fuck this shit, i want out"
Troyan X Warrior (12:40:10): and then they bithced at me for trying to keep them around and just go home
Troyan X Warrior (12:40:15): its like nothing i do is good enough
"Joey" (12:41:35): well you are still in hte game so dont worry about it
Troyan X Warrior (12:42:02): yeah for two rounds max haha, im gonna try and enjoy myself but eh, i still kind of want out
Troyan X Warrior (12:42:10): anyways thanks for hearing me vent joey <3
Troyan X Warrior (12:42:19): hows work?
"Joey" (12:42:48): i havent worked in a few days but when i do its fun
Troyan X Warrior (12:43:13): lol why havent you worked?

[Alex]

Reactions to my stage fight with Jeffrey, which has yet to meet it's super personal crescendo!




"RB" (22:20:20): Hey man
Troyan X Warrior (22:20:27): hey there
Troyan X Warrior (22:20:34): whats up?
"RB" (22:20:50): I just wanted to say it sucks how you're being treated and talked to over at the forum
Troyan X Warrior (22:21:10): thanks rb, i just dont know whats up jeffreys ass
"RB" (22:21:23): Yah I dunno, why did you two get in a fight?
Troyan X Warrior (22:22:20): well remember that day i was super down and i wanted to quit? i was telling him that i just wanted out and that i had asked you guys to be voted out and he went all "you are fucking us all over, you are a bad friend bla bla bla"/
"RB" (22:22:41): Oh
Troyan X Warrior (22:22:50): yeah he is an asshole
Troyan X Warrior (22:23:36): i cant stand the kid, like he is so mean constantly and if ti wasnt because i liked him erik and etc would have never even added him to our alliance
"RB" (22:24:22): Yeah, I've yet to meet him. I'm gonna talk to him just because of that but I don't approve of how he is treating ya.
Troyan X Warrior (22:24:40): thanks, i appreciate it, seriously
Troyan X Warrior (22:24:50): im just tired of all the stupid drama
"RB" (22:25:37): Well, I'm sure he'll probably get his unless he wins immunity. Don't take my word on that but that's how I think it'll go down.
Troyan X Warrior (22:26:06): im voting for him regardless, like if i go i want him to receive a very nasty vote
"RB" (22:29:34): Yah, well my vote would go to him or Britti before you so no worries. Just stay as positive as you can man.
Troyan X Warrior (22:30:06): thanks rb, i appreciate it
"RB" (22:30:50): np
"RB" (22:31:00): I saw you at the Explorations board earlier. You still following it?
"RB" (22:31:11): Or you just wanted to see who got voted out since you did?
Troyan X Warrior (22:31:39): i wanted to see who was still going and if anyone had posted in the lsoers lodge
"RB" (22:32:28): Yah not really. Everyone was inactive lol
Troyan X Warrior (22:32:38): aaron and kelly were inactive?
"RB" (22:32:43): Oh well, no.
"RB" (22:32:48): But they both self-voted the TCs they left.
Troyan X Warrior (22:32:53): ouch
"RB" (22:46:13): You doing the IC right now or no? I don't wanna bug you if you are.
Troyan X Warrior (22:46:22): no, im gonna do it tomorrow
"RB" (22:46:26): Ah okay
"RB" (22:46:32): I know it requires concentration
"RB" (22:46:38): Bleh, I am not looking forward to it.
Troyan X Warrior (22:46:52): when are you doing it?
"RB" (22:47:22): Tomorrow, if at all =/
Troyan X Warrior (22:47:30): you dont think you'll do it?
"RB" (22:47:31): I work and I can only hope I have the time
Troyan X Warrior (22:47:39): well at least attempt it
"RB" (22:47:48): Yah, I have to at least try
Troyan X Warrior (22:48:08): yup, because if jeffrey wins ill kill myself
Troyan X Warrior (22:54:03): do you think the others would want to vote him out?
"RB" (22:54:19): I think so, Jason for sure
Troyan X Warrior (22:54:56): good, and like ig et along with evan and rob a lot so i think they might want to take my side over his
"RB" (22:56:55): Yah I think so. People were saying his behaviour was like gonna seal his doom.
Troyan X Warrior (22:57:11): well good, cause he deserves it
Troyan X Warrior (23:13:46): im going to bed rb, im exhausted and i dont want to deal with that idiot anymore, sleep tight and thanks
"RB" (23:13:51): Night bro


And what he told Jeffrey:
"Jeffrey" (22:46:15):
RB RichBoyy: Ya, you came across as a jerk at the board towards Alex but you're not so bad to talk to here **shrug** Seem nice enough towards me anyways. Then again, this is our first talk. You don't hate me *yet* because ya having nothing to really hate me about lol

Its Oh So Bjork: lol well alex has proven himself to be a bigger ass than i could ever aspire to be, so i'm gonna hate on him just for that